Over the weekend I went away to Poole for a Christian conference about being a missionary in our schools, it was really good! I went with my best friend and it was great to be built up with passion for God at the same time! On Monday, we had our usual prayer meetings which was great; we went out on a mini- outreach trip and prayed for some people who were on crutches, unfortunately we didn't see any healings as only one person was willing to be prayed for.
After the conference, I planned to get up earlier in the mornings and spend more time with God, but it has't worked out so far. Sometimes we just get tired or busy and distracted by the world. It's so annoying! I wish I was full-time in the presence of God, worshipping him all the time, but that's what Heaven is for! I get tired easily but I know that God is waiting for me to come and talk to him so he can speak to me. I'm not making excuses, but we shouldn't condemn ourselves for not having our "devotional time" with God. We just pick it up again. The thing is, I really want to be listening and talking to God, I just forget or get distracted! I do want to try harder, but I need your help God!
Over that week-end I also believed that God was telling me to go to Ukraine sooner than I imagined. We watched a DVD called Compassion which is an organisation that sponsors children over the world. I was watching it, and just felt an urge to go and help the children who are suffering. I wanted to go as soon as I left school. I really felt that it would be sooner than I thought anyway (which goes with a word which I received at Newday). I prayed about it and asked God for confirmations, I also told my Friend about it. Then we went into groups and were given a series of discussion topics. After completing these, I asked what people wanted to do when they had left school and college. Then in reply, they asked me. So I said I think I'm going to go to Ukraine. At that moment one of our leaders came and sat down and said "Oh I love Ukraine, it's awesome!" So I replied (with Shock!) "Wait? You've been to Ukraine?!" He said that he had and I said that I had always wanted to go there and he told me of loads of English Christian friends who he knew who had moved out there! THEN he said that he could give me their contact details if I wanted!!! What a great confirmation! I didn't actually end up taking the details because we never got around to it, but the conversation was there! Then, after that, we were sitting in a room reading books and bibles and stuff when I started thinking "Actually, maybe I shouldn't go that soon, I'm really young, I'm a woman, I don't really know what I'm doing, I'm one person - I can't do this on my own. (This was all said in my thoughts!) Then my friend turned around from her book and said "Oh wow! Listen to this! It's so cool!" She then read out the following:
"When it comes to serving God, we must never focus our attention on the size of the task, for it will squash our vision and enthusiasm, we should always place our eyes on the size of our Lord. What he says will happen always takes place in his perfect timing and nothing can stop the Lord's will being done on earth or in Heaven." ~ Brother Yun
How cool is that! Exactly what I was thinking! Then... Later, I sat down on a chair and opened my bible which opened on this verse:
Judges 18:6
The Priest answered them, "Go in peace. Your journey had the Lord's approval."
So that was really awesome confirmations! Also, I opened a book and found the Lyrics to Steven Curtis Chapman's song "What now?"However, I still don't know if soon is 16 or 18 or maybe a bit after that? I just know it's soon. I really wanted to trust in God for this though and assuming it was as soon as possible, I decided not to create any back-up plans and go by faith alone (like Jackie Pullinger!). That didn't really last long. My school 6th form open evening was last night and wasn't going to go but then I was convinced that it would be okay and I would just look around and not decide anything. I looked around a lot of topics and could only find 2 which I wanted to do- 'French' and 'Religion, Philosophy and Ethics' Plus an extra-curricular course called tEfl (teaching English as a foreign language). They looked really good but I had to find two others. I looked and looked, I eventually came up with Sociology but wasn't amazed by that. I then decided on a random other to do because I had to and before I knew it I had created a backup plan. So I was a bit annoyed at myself and angry that there weren't enough good options and wanted God to tell me what to do! I'm still not entirely sure but I'm just going to wait and see, I have 2 months before I have to give in my application form for college or 6th form so hopefully God will reveal his plan to me by then! I'm excited by the future but I also know God wants me to be a missionary now in my school for him.
Lord, I thank you for the many promises you give to us. I thank you that you speak to us, even today. I pray that you would reveal to me your plan for my life. I pray that you would tell me when I'm on the right path and when I'm about to swerve. Please tell me the thing I need to know in your amazing and perfect timing. I pray you would give me supernatural energy when I'm tired and revive me! I pray for a revival in this nation Lord! I truly believe you are about to move in a massive way! Keep me awake and alert so I don't miss the works you are about to do. Use me for your glory Lord. I pray for Mum and Dad whilst they are in India, that they would be a blessing to the community there and they would be blessed as they outreach to the people there. I pray for your protection over them against any illnesses or attacks. In your great name, I pray. Amen!
Keep praying for the work in my school, that the people would be impacted so greatly by the work God does through us and that they would be willing to be prayed for or simply talk about God with us. Pray for a revival! It's going to hit this community so greatly!!
P.S. A few days ago I had a picture of these people floating in the water of a beach and they were sleeping, just floating in the water. Then, they started to rise up and became a massive army, they were revived! God is going to awaken an army of people who will be used greatly for his Kingdom come! Wake up or you'll miss it!!
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