Didn't last very long...

So turns out that wasn't the last post... I'm bored and felt like blogging. I've just emailed 5 people who have moved away to do things God has called them to do and now I feel a little bit jealous that I'm not on such a grand adventure! No, I take that back. My life is a pretty big adventure, I just wish it would get a bit more exciting! I mean, I really want to go abroad and do something like go to Kenya and teach primary school kids or go to The Ukraine and help street kids, or go anywhere that needs people to help the poor. I know everyone says the rich need to find Jesus as much as the poor but that's not my heart! My heart is to help the poor, particularly children and I'm going to feel restless until I'm out there helping. I love feeling needed and I just don't feel that right now. My 2 best friends have moved away to go to a music college, which is an awesome experience for them, but that just means that I don't even feel needed by them anymore. I don't mean to sound selfish but hey, isn't that what  blogs are for? My passion is to be in the heart of the action, helping people in a physical way just like Jesus taught us to in the bible. I keep praying for an opportunity to go somewhere but God's going to need to provide in a big way. My parents wouldn't be to happy about me going abroad but if it was definitely from God then they would support me. If God wants me to stay here for longer then I will, but I just feel like I'm not doing much. I wish I could be of more help to people who really need my help. I don't have much to give, I'm not special, I'm from a small town in England with a passion for Jesus and the poor and I feel like I want to do something with my life. Anyway, rant over! I feel satisfied with pouring out my feelings onto a page which nobody reads, it's quite cathartic.


That said, life is good. I'm a pretty laid back, happy person (you'd never guess that from my posts though!) and enjoy life for the most part. I know some lovely people and am completely in love with Jesus, I want to get to know him better though because I know I'm not living in the fullness of His power and I know I would be so much more satisfied with life if I was. If anyone is reading this and has a bible on them (Or just type it into Google) read Isaiah 58, I've been re-reading it over and over again this past week. It's so beautiful! When I think about God, it makes me happy :) So I can now leave this blog in a good mood again because I've just been thinking about Him. Jesus is awesome! I literally wouldn't know what to do without Him.

Revive Prayer Meeting!

We now have a permanent room for our school prayer meeting (Revive)! We were meeting in a maths room but people kept disturbing us or the teacher forgot and locked the door so we couldn't go in. Well, we decided it was time we found a more suitable spot so we are now meeting somewhere permanently until April/ Easter then we can find another permanent spot from there on out. We meet every Monday lunch and sometimes Thursday lunches. Now that we have a room of our own, we can publicise it, so we are going to make some posters and/or handouts- Keep praying that loads of people will be interested in praying with us for our school!

Why can I think of absolutely nothing to say?! Oh well, I guess this one will have to be short! Expect more news very soon!

Nearly a new year...

The realisation hit me earlier today... it is almost the end of the year! At the beginning of this year there were a lot of prophecies about this being a new year and amazing things happening to the youth, and those promises have been fulfilled. My new year's resolution to bring someone to Christ has been fulfilled also! I can't wait to write next years resolution!! I wonder where I will be this time next year and what I will be doing. I think I have a rough idea but it's up to God; I'm waiting to see where he leads me! I am so excited!

I was in Biology today and I was thinking about how my teacher was teaching and I imagined teaching children at some point, specifically poor children who have no homes or families, and I thought that there are so many children and what would be a nice number to take off the streets and look after and I thought to myself: "8? Yes, 8 is a nice number, I can do 8" And as soon as I said it I just felt God laugh! It was so hearty that I started laughing too in the middle of my lesson! I don't think many people noticed but it was very funny. So I am thinking that God has a lot more children in mind than just 8!


I have also been thinking of mission trips and I am interested in doing one next summer, it is for a week and I have signed up for it. There is a selection process so I suppose if God wants me to go then I'll get through and be able to raise the money! It's all so exciting. I would love to be involved with a church plant as well, to watch a church's growth from the beginning. I think that would be so exciting! I think my family might be taking part in one pretty soon!


It would be so cool if a stranger walked up to me and handed me plane tickets to Ukraine with the date on that I was supposed to go but it doesn't always happen like that! Sometimes it does and that is so cool when that happens but I had a dream that my mum told me to start saving for the Ukraine flight now, I woke up and I remembered it very clearly. So, I need to start saving my pocket money! I can't wait until we go back to school next year! My last school year and it's going to be amazing! I know that God has some huge plans ahead and he has written his name on our school as his so we wait for him to spread his revival fire!

Living everyday.

Haven't written in here for a while! I've had a topsy turvy couple of weeks so far! My parents went to India a little over a week ago to help over there with some children as a church mission thing. It's been really nice for them, we had a couple of emails and a phone call from them which was sweet, they sound as though they're really enjoying themselves. I can't wait for them to come back though! We've been praying for them as they're away and so far so good!


Over the weekend I went away to Poole for a Christian conference about being a missionary in our schools, it was really good! I went with my best friend and it was great to be built up with passion for God at the same time! On Monday, we had our usual prayer meetings which was great; we went out on a mini- outreach trip and prayed for some people who were on crutches, unfortunately we didn't see any healings as only one person was willing to be prayed for.
After the conference, I planned to get up earlier in the mornings and spend more time with God, but it has't worked out so far. Sometimes we just get tired or busy and distracted by the world. It's so annoying! I wish I was full-time in the presence of God, worshipping him all the time, but that's what Heaven is for! I get tired easily but I know that God is waiting for me to come and talk to him so he can speak to me. I'm not making excuses, but we shouldn't condemn ourselves for not having our "devotional time" with God. We just pick it up again. The thing is, I really want to be listening and talking to God, I just forget or get distracted! I do want to try harder, but I need your help God!


Over that week-end I also believed that God was telling me to go to Ukraine sooner than I imagined. We watched a DVD called Compassion which is an organisation that sponsors children over the world. I was watching it, and just felt an urge to go and help the children who are suffering. I wanted to go as soon as I left school. I really felt that it would be sooner than I thought anyway (which goes with a word which I received at Newday). I prayed about it and asked God for confirmations, I also told my Friend about it. Then we went into groups and were given a series of discussion topics. After completing these, I asked what people wanted to do when they had left school and college. Then in reply, they asked me. So I said I think I'm going to go to Ukraine. At that moment one of our leaders came and sat down and said "Oh I love Ukraine, it's awesome!" So I replied (with Shock!) "Wait? You've been to Ukraine?!" He said that he had and I said that I had always wanted to go there and he told me of loads of English Christian friends who he knew who had moved out there! THEN he said that he could give me their contact details if I wanted!!! What a great confirmation! I didn't actually end up taking the details because we never got around to it, but the conversation was there! Then, after that, we were sitting in a room reading books and bibles and stuff when I started thinking "Actually, maybe I shouldn't go that soon, I'm really young, I'm a woman, I don't really know what I'm doing, I'm one person - I can't do this on my own. (This was all said in my thoughts!) Then my friend turned around from her book and said "Oh wow! Listen to this! It's so cool!" She then read out the following:

"When it comes to serving God, we must never focus our attention on the size of the task, for it will squash our vision and enthusiasm, we should always place our eyes on the size of our Lord. What he says will happen always takes place in his perfect timing and nothing can stop the Lord's will being done on earth or in Heaven." ~ Brother Yun

How cool is that! Exactly what I was thinking! Then... Later, I sat down on a chair and opened my bible which opened on this verse: 

Judges 18:6

The Priest answered them, "Go in peace. Your journey had the Lord's approval."

So that was really awesome confirmations! Also, I opened a book and found the Lyrics to Steven Curtis Chapman's song "What now?"However, I still don't know if soon is 16 or 18 or maybe a bit after that? I just know it's soon. I really wanted to trust in God for this though and assuming it was as soon as possible, I decided not to create any back-up plans and go by faith alone (like Jackie Pullinger!). That didn't really last long. My school 6th form open evening was last night and  wasn't going to go but then I was convinced that it would be okay and I would just look around and not decide anything. I looked around a lot of topics and could only find 2 which I wanted to do- 'French' and 'Religion, Philosophy and Ethics' Plus an extra-curricular course called tEfl (teaching English as a foreign language). They looked really good but I had to find two others. I looked and looked, I eventually came up with Sociology but wasn't amazed by that. I then decided on a random other to do because I had to and before I knew it I had created a backup plan. So I was a bit annoyed at myself and angry that there weren't enough good options and wanted God to tell me what to do! I'm still not entirely sure but I'm just going to wait and see, I have 2 months before I have to give in my application form for college or 6th form so hopefully God will reveal his plan to me by then! I'm excited by the future but I also know God wants me to be a missionary now in my school for him. 

Lord, I thank you for the many promises you give to us. I thank you that you speak to us, even today. I pray that you would reveal to me your plan for my life. I pray that you would tell me when I'm on the right path and when I'm about to swerve. Please tell me the thing I need to know in your amazing and perfect timing. I pray you would give me supernatural energy when I'm tired and revive me! I pray for a revival in this nation Lord! I truly believe you are about to move in a massive way! Keep me awake and alert so I don't miss the works you are about to do. Use me for your glory Lord. I pray for Mum and Dad whilst they are in India, that they would be a blessing to the community there and they would be blessed as they outreach to the people there. I pray for your protection over them against any illnesses or attacks. In your great name, I pray. Amen!

Keep praying for the work in my school, that the people would be impacted so greatly by the work God does through us and that they would be willing to be prayed for or simply talk about God with us. Pray for a revival! It's going to hit this community so greatly!!

P.S. A few days ago I had a picture of these people floating in the water of a beach and they were sleeping, just floating in the water. Then, they started to rise up and became a massive army, they were revived! God is going to awaken an army of people who will be used greatly for his Kingdom come! Wake up or you'll miss it!!

The call and confirmations

Every Summer since I was 11 I have been to this Christian camp called Newday. It was here that God revealed some plans he had for my life.

Like I said I felt called to go and mission somewhere but didn't know where or what I would be doing, so I prayed about it and a few countries came into my head because I was trying to think about where it could be, then when I stopped thinking about it The Ukraine popped into my head. I had never heard of it before so I researched it on the internet. I found out where it was in Europe, the main religion, about the culture and the people. It all sounded like a pretty decent place to live, the main religion was Christianity, the people didn't look  that poor, I thought 'well, I don't know why God wants me to go here, it doesn't seem like anything needs changing!' Typical me not to look at the whole country, I was only looking at the 'comfortable' places in The Ukraine. The Ukraine, like most countries, have their poorer areas and their more affluent areas. Also, mission work doesn't just need to be helping poor people, richer people have needs as well and it's not just the poor who don't know Christ. So I prayed and asked God to show me if The Ukraine is definitely my "mission" ground. The answer came back quickly, a few weeks later, I went to my nanny's (grandma's) house and turned on the television and there was a programme about the world's strongest boy- who was a Ukrainian!!! Then, within that month, I was in my car and I picked up a book which belonged to my dad, the first sentence said something about a Russian-Ukrainian church!!! THEN, I was in my school assembly and they were talking about leadership and a picture of the Ukrainian Prime Minister came up in a power point slide!!! So that's how I knew.


Then, this January, I started to have doubts about it, even after those confirmations so I prayed again, on the internet I typed in the definition of "The Ukraine",  I clicked on the second thing that came up, it said " The earliest translation of The Ukraine means 'The land chosen out for us by God'. Well, if that didn't convince me I don't know what did!


So that's how I knew the place, although I still didn't have a clue about what I would be doing there, until a few weeks ago. I went to this camp, Newday, and I was in a meeting one evening and the preach was about church planting and going to the nations, a lady came up and prayed with me, I wasn't paying much attention t what she was praying because I was praying my own prayer but the one word that I did hear was "Orphans". Upon hearing that, I burst into tears, wanting to reach out and help little children who had no one to look after them. When the worship was over, we sat down and someone in the meeting of about 7000(!) threw a paper aeroplane at me and my friend, it read 'Jeremiah 49:10-11' It is a really random verse which wouldn't make sense if you randomly picked up a bible and hadn't read the whole of Jeremiah, and even though I haven't read the whole of Jeremiah it made sense to me because it said something about taking care of your orphans. So I am pretty sure I am supposed to help in an orphanage or help orphans or something. I don't think it's saying that I'm supposed to adopt though, but hey, who knows. Anyway, that's the latest on the Mission on Ukraine, but right now, I have a mission field right here at home. My school. With no names attached because I won't be giving out personal information, me and my friend will be praying for Conversations with our friends and opportunities to help people. So I will keep you posted on that as well as any updates on The Ukraine and my life, which at the moment is really boring because I am stuck at home in the countryside, while it's pouring down with rain and I have seen the same people for the past 3 days!! Bring on the Sunshine!!!