Didn't last very long...

So turns out that wasn't the last post... I'm bored and felt like blogging. I've just emailed 5 people who have moved away to do things God has called them to do and now I feel a little bit jealous that I'm not on such a grand adventure! No, I take that back. My life is a pretty big adventure, I just wish it would get a bit more exciting! I mean, I really want to go abroad and do something like go to Kenya and teach primary school kids or go to The Ukraine and help street kids, or go anywhere that needs people to help the poor. I know everyone says the rich need to find Jesus as much as the poor but that's not my heart! My heart is to help the poor, particularly children and I'm going to feel restless until I'm out there helping. I love feeling needed and I just don't feel that right now. My 2 best friends have moved away to go to a music college, which is an awesome experience for them, but that just means that I don't even feel needed by them anymore. I don't mean to sound selfish but hey, isn't that what  blogs are for? My passion is to be in the heart of the action, helping people in a physical way just like Jesus taught us to in the bible. I keep praying for an opportunity to go somewhere but God's going to need to provide in a big way. My parents wouldn't be to happy about me going abroad but if it was definitely from God then they would support me. If God wants me to stay here for longer then I will, but I just feel like I'm not doing much. I wish I could be of more help to people who really need my help. I don't have much to give, I'm not special, I'm from a small town in England with a passion for Jesus and the poor and I feel like I want to do something with my life. Anyway, rant over! I feel satisfied with pouring out my feelings onto a page which nobody reads, it's quite cathartic.


That said, life is good. I'm a pretty laid back, happy person (you'd never guess that from my posts though!) and enjoy life for the most part. I know some lovely people and am completely in love with Jesus, I want to get to know him better though because I know I'm not living in the fullness of His power and I know I would be so much more satisfied with life if I was. If anyone is reading this and has a bible on them (Or just type it into Google) read Isaiah 58, I've been re-reading it over and over again this past week. It's so beautiful! When I think about God, it makes me happy :) So I can now leave this blog in a good mood again because I've just been thinking about Him. Jesus is awesome! I literally wouldn't know what to do without Him.

Time to start posting!!

Hey again! Long time no write.. I realised that I haven't been on here enough lately so I have returned!


Things have started up again this week.. I have just finished a book called "Love has a face" which is absolutely amazing! I really want to love people like Jesus loves them! Any way, I woke up on Monday morning and the book said 1. Get up, 2. Ask God what he is doing, 3. Go and do it with him. So I woke up and asked God what he was doing and felt him say "Healing the sick" so I prayed for divine appointments this weeks where God would send me to the lost, lonely, hurting and the sick. Any way, Had a really cool prayer meeting on Monday which was superb! And then yesterday, I was sitting with a group of friends and one of my friend's friends complained that she felt awful. So seizing the opportunity, I asked her what was wrong and she said she had really saw blocked ears so I asked if I could pray for her. She said that it was fine, so I asked if I could put my hands on here ears and she was like "Yeah, sure, if you want to" So I prayed for her ears to be healed in Jesus' name! She said thanks and said she'd let me know if it made a difference. I thought "Wahoo! Thank you Jesus!" He gave me an opportunity, courage to take it and through that, one more person knows about Jesus!


It's amazing what can happen when you take out your bible and read it at school. A flock of people gathered round and started to ask me "What on earth are you reading? Oh my word, is that the bible?!" So I had another opportunity there to share about the bible nd answer some of their questions about the old and new testaments and explained why I thought it was a really exciting book and definitely not boring, etc.


Then today, I prayed for another divine appointment and opportunities to heal people and went downstairs and my dad's daily reading was open on "Bringing Healing" so I read it and it asked what I was confident about regarding healing. It also had this amazing bible verse on it from John 14:12-14, which I love!!


So I went to school completely sure that whatever I asked God for he would give; I asked him for opportunities to pray with people. Anyway, first lesson, my friend told me that her boyfriend was in court this morning fighting with his ex-girlfriend about who gets custody of the child. So I asked if I could pray for them because she seemed worried about it. So let her know that I was praying and asked God to do what was best for the child.


This same friend asks me to pray for her for things quite regularly because she said that every time she asks me to pray the prayers are answered! Thank you God! I really pray that you would do more in our school! I ask that everyday you can use me to do your will and share the Love of Jesus with my classmates!

New year resolutions

Happy new year!

It's came around again. That time of year when you promise yourself that you're going to walk the dog more often and limit your chocolate intake to once a month... we all know it's not going to happen! I figured that out a while ago. That's why, for myself, I don't like resolutions. They can be really helpful and I'm not saying don't write them! They can be very useful but I find it's just a list that gets stuck to the wall for a month before it falls off and hides itself under the bed. 
So I decided to write a list of expectations. Jesus is so cool and he is going to do some awesome things this year. Even though I expect him to do amazing things, I still put him into a box. A box which is labelled "Expected plans and safety". Jesus doesn't like boxes. So here are my proposed new year expectations.


1. I expect to see revival come to my school before I leave this year.
2. I expect to spend time with God more this year.
3. I expect to help lead hundreds of people to God this year.
4. I expect to see revival hit Weymouth this year.
5. I expect God to speak to me more, prophesies from God through others to me and to others from God through me.


I write this down so that this time next year, I can see the amazing things God has done, all the promises he has fulfilled. I realised that by writing this I just put God into a box again so I write another:

6. I expect God not only to fulfil all of my expectations but to completely and utterly surpass them in ways I cannot imagine, to be even more than I expect! I expect and ask that God would be unexpected this year!

I am so excited! God has promised many many things, and he is always faithful. This year is a new year. The end of last year was just the warm-up. Get rid of those boxes, get rid of the safety nets and the comfort. Get God! When we clear all the rubbish out there's more space for God. Don't give him the leftover space; give him first place in your life this year. I'll try too!


Don't worry if we mess this up. Jesus' arms are always open, he loves you unconditionally. Don't be afraid to ask for his help. We won't fulfil resolutions by our own strength but we can do everything through Christ who strengthens us.


I wish you the best and I hope that 2011 is a really good year for all. Have an amazing year! God bless!

Merry Christmas! :)

Happy Christmas! I hope you had a really good day! I did! We had all our family over in the afternoon which was really nice, my brother has moved back in with us and is currently sleeping on the sofa bed in our lounge so we had to wait a bit longer to open our presents whilst he woke up! My parents are thinking of turning their bedroom into 2 smaller rooms so that my brother has a bedroom, then when he moves out again me and my sister won't have to share a room because we can move into the separate ones! I really hope they can! As one of my presents I got a CD player so I can now play music in my room without using my phone! Unfortunately, because I share a room I can't play music non-stop and my sister and I don't have the same taste in music. I also got quite a few books for Christmas; I am in the middle of reading one which is called "Love walked among us" which is really interesting. I haven't been out much this week so I don't really have much to say but I hope to share some interesting news the week we get back to school! I am very excited for this coming year! 

The Social Network Christmas!

This is a video that was shown in our church and I just think it's a really cool way to tell the world the good news! Please watch!

Love Letter From God.

This is an incredible letter from God to you, his child.

My Child,

You may not know me,
but I know everything about you. 
(Psalm 139:1)

I know when you sit down and when you rise up. 
(Psalm 139:2)

I am familiar with all your ways. 
(Psalm 139:3)

Even the very hairs on your head are numbered. 
(Matthew 10:29-31)

For you were made in my image. 
(Genesis 1:27)

In me you live and move and have your being.
(Acts 17:28)

For you are my offspring. 
(Acts 17:28)

I knew you even before you were conceived. 
(Jeremiah 1:4-5)

I chose you when I planned creation. 
(Ephesians 1:11-12)

You were not a mistake,
for all your days are written in my book. 
(Psalm 139:15-16)

I determined the exact time of your birth
and where you would live. 
(Acts 17:26)

You are fearfully and wonderfully made. 
(Psalm 139:14)

I knit you together in your mother's womb. 
(Psalm 139:13)

And brought you forth on the day you were born. 
(Psalm 71:6)

I have been misrepresented
by those who don't know me.
(John 8:41-44)

I am not distant and angry,
but am the complete expression of love. 
(1 John 4:16)

And it is my desire to lavish my love on you. 
(1 John 3:1)

Simply because you are my child
and I am your Father. 
(1 John 3:1)

I offer you more than your earthly father ever could. 
(Matthew 7:11)

For I am the perfect father. 
(Matthew 5:48)

Every good gift that you receive comes from my hand. 
(James 1:17)

For I am your provider and I meet all your needs. 
(Matthew 6:31-33)

My plan for your future has always been filled with hope. 
(Jeremiah 29:11)

Because I love you with an everlasting love. 
(Jeremiah 31:3)

My thoughts toward you are countless
as the sand on the seashore.
(Psalms 139:17-18)

And I rejoice over you with singing. 
(Zephaniah 3:17)

I will never stop doing good to you. 
(Jeremiah 32:40)

For you are my treasured possession. 
(Exodus 19:5)

I desire to establish you
with all my heart and all my soul. 
(Jeremiah 32:41)

And I want to show you great and marvelous things. 
(Jeremiah 33:3)

If you seek me with all your heart,
you will find me. 
(Deuteronomy 4:29)

Delight in me and I will give you
the desires of your heart. 
(Psalm 37:4)

For it is I who gave you those desires. 
(Philippians 2:13)

I am able to do more for you
than you could possibly imagine. 
(Ephesians 3:20)

For I am your greatest encourager. 
(2 Thessalonians 2:16-17)

I am also the Father who comforts you
in all your troubles. 
(2 Corinthians 1:3-4)

When you are brokenhearted,
I am close to you. 
(Psalm 34:18)

As a shepherd carries a lamb,
I have carried you close to my heart. 
(Isaiah 40:11)

One day I will wipe away
every tear from your eyes. 
(Revelation 21:3-4)

And I'll take away all the pain
you have suffered on this earth.
(Revelation 21:3-4)

I am your Father, and I love you
even as I love my son, Jesus.
(John 17:23)

For in Jesus, my love for you is revealed. 
(John 17:26)

He is the exact representation of my being. 
(Hebrews 1:3)

He came to demonstrate that I am for you,
not against you. 
(Romans 8:31)

And to tell you that I am not counting your sins.
(2 Corinthians 5:18-19)

Jesus died so that you and I could be reconciled. 
(2 Corinthians 5:18-19)

His death was the ultimate expression
of my love for you. 
(1 John 4:10)

I gave up everything I loved
that I might gain your love. 
(Romans 8:31-32)

If you receive the gift of my son Jesus,
you receive me. 
(1 John 2:23)

And nothing will ever separate you
from my love again.
(Romans 8:38-39)

Come home and I'll throw the biggest party
heaven has ever seen.
(Luke 15:7)

I have always been Father,
and will always be Father.
(Ephesians 3:14-15)

My question is…
Will you be my child? 
(John 1:12-13)

I am waiting for you. 
(Luke 15:11-32)

Love, Your DadAlmighty God

Love them like Jesus...

I read something in a book last night which was.. pretty awesome! The book was the bible and it said this: "But I tell you who hear me: love your enemies, do good to those who hate you, bless those who curse you, pray for those who ill-treat you. If someone strikes you on one cheek, turn to him the other also. If some one takes your cloak, do not stop him from taking you tunic. Give to everyone who asks of you, and if anyone takes what belongs to you, do not demand it back." (Luke 6:27-30)


I have read this passage before, but it hadn't really stood out to me that much. I read it again, and realised that actually, I have so much to learn. You see, I got this cup for my birthday, it's a Cath Kidson mug and I was really pleased with it. However I don't use it that often because it's quite large and I usually only want a small cup of tea or whatever, but it was still mine. Then, my sister started borrowing it and for some reason I got really annoyed. I told her not to steal it because it's mine and I didn't want her to break it. I kept getting angry with her every time she took it. Now, having read that, I could have let her take it. I could have offered to make her a cup of tea with it. When my sisters want to borrow my clothes I could let them borrow them, then they wouldn't be 'stealing'. If we share everything with everyone, there wouldn't be thieves!! If my sister takes my favourite jumper from my wardrobe, I could offer her my best hat to go with it. That is love! It's grace! It's loving like Jesus! We all think 'What Would Jesus Do?' But do we all think 'What Did Jesus Do?' Jesus gave everything he had, when people persecuted him he prayed "Father forgive them" When the poor came to him, he blessed them. 


I know that I have so many things, a lot of it is junk, as Christmas comes closer I will obtain more "stuff" but there are people who own nothing but the clothes on their backs. I have so much that I can give, what stops me? I honestly don't know the answer to that question. I want to give and share but why don't I? Maybe I value my possessions far more than I should. We come into this world with nothing and we leave with nothing. So technically, that means that every possession we own, doesn't really belong to us. We're borrowing it whilst we're on this earth. If the world didn't value "stuff" so much, every one would be more satisfied. People say money doesn't buy you happiness, I don't completely agree. I think it buys happiness for a while, but it will never buy satisfaction. Some one spends their whole life saving for  this one object because the media or their friends have told them that it's amazing and that it will bring them happiness. And they buy it, and it does make them happy! For a week or two they're overjoyed with this "thing" that they have, but then they see an advert for a car or a new phone and suddenly, they want that instead. The thing that they so desperately wanted, when they have it, they suddenly see it's uselessness. True happiness comes from serving other people. I'm not talking about becoming a slave, I'm talking about helping others. Some people might spit it back in your face, but the people who accept your help and are grateful, that will make you happy. When you make someone smile or say thank you or laugh, don't you feel all bubbly inside? It makes you happy knowing that others are happy. It is impossible to be happy when you are walking through a street with children dying both sides of you, a war zone in front of you. And not just because you're scared you could die, but because you see suffering. Unless your a sadist you can't smile when you watch destruction and suffering. But when you help those people, when you make a child smile, then you start to smile, knowing that you just made someone else's life worthwhile. If you're unsatisfied with life and don't feel that your life is worthwhile, it's because your not doing anything worthwhile! I can spend my time playing computer games, reading novels, lying in on the weekends, arguing with my sisters, these are all pointless things which do absolutely nothing. If I didn't do these things and instead I spent time with God, I helped my mum with the tidying, I went and spent time with old people who are dying and with newborn infants, then I would see the meaning to this life, I would be humbled. 


Don't get me wrong, I'm not having a go at anyone, I do it too! I live an unsatisfying life because I am selfish and I place too much value on worldly things. I want to be humbled and full of love and grace! I can't do it on my own, that's why I need God to help me. To ask him if he will soften my heart and open doors to help people. I need him to help me get rid of the selfishness in my life and give me a heart of love. I am going to mess up, it's going to happen because I am only a human. I need God to help me, but even if I don't change, even if tomorrow I go shopping and buy lots of clothes and ignore the homeless guy on the street, God still loves me! I can't stress this enough!! You are free by grace! God died so that we don't have to earn our way to heaven, if we accept him and ask him into our lives, we are going to heaven!!!!! *CELEBRATE* but I want the most out of my life, I want to live a life full of love. 


God love us so much! He thinks about us all the time! He can't take his mind of us! We are free! We are children of God! I read this the other day, it's a love letter from God, they are all verses from the bible put together to make a letter of love from our creator God. I just read it and it is quite long so I will put it on a separate post... Please read it, it's amazing!!

Running out of blog titles.....

An entire week of Mock exams! They are finally over! In a years time I will never have to do  exams if I choose not to continue further education... a scary thought! What if I don't continue education.. what if God has other plans? I think he's starting to reveal them bit by bit. It's so exciting to be part of an amazing plan that glorifies God!! I don't know how may people will support the idea of stopping "education" but I'm going to do what God says and let some one else worry about other people's views!


In December the United Nations are voting on the "defamation of religious expression" which basically means that if it goes through, each government will be able to decide which restrictions they put on religious freedom. Basically, making the persecution of Christians legal. It might not happen, only God knows. But, it is very possible. There are already a huge number of Christians being persecuted all over the world and it's only going to get bigger. I'm not afraid. If God says it's going to happen, it will happen. It may not necessarily be in my lifetime. It's hard to imagine so many things changing but eventually, change will be inevitable. I'm not sounding too grim am I? It's not supposed to be! Jesus is our rock and our fortress, he has given us spiritual armour so that we may run the race of life. Don't worry! Jesus has already won!! The whole battle was won when Jesus rose from the grave! The bible says "Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to his life?" The road is prepared. It's going to happen with or without you, but Jesus wants you! Are you prepared to follow him, allow him to use your life as a reflector of his glory? Then tell him! Let him know! He wants to hear you say that you'll do anything and go anywhere for him! If you tell him that, he will use you to bring people to him.


In a world of darkness it's our time to shine! Let the love of God be our road map and the spirit be our guide. Think something is impossible? Nothing is impossible with God. Think you can't do it? 2 Corinthians 12:9-10 says; ⁹ But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me. ¹⁰ That is why, for Christ’s sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong. In our weakness, God is strong. Sometime (not always!) it's great when we don't know anything. People always say to me that I need to bring something with me when I go to Ukraine; some qualification to help the people. And you know what? That's great when people go as nurses or teachers! But sometimes God just wants us as we are. I feel, for me, I don't have the time to go to University before I go to Ukraine. But I have something for them which saves lives too, and it will never run out or dry up. Jesus. He is never ending! His love will never run out! They can just keep passing it on and on to others! I may not know how to save some one's physical body from dying, but I know how to save their spirit and you don't need a degree in that! I think it's great when people learn first aid but I don't want to bring bandages and medicines! I want to bring the healing power of Jesus! If I knew how to resuscitate someone, I would. But because I don't, I would have to pray for them! So in this case it's a good job I don't know other things to rely on. It's such a great adventure because it means relying on God alone! This is going to be a massive leap of faith, but Jesus told me that when I can't walk on water he will carry me. I never want to walk alone! And I will never have to. Jesus promised us that he would never leave us! I'm not worried about it even though it does seem quite scary. I have Jesus and he is my rock. My protector. We are immortal until God calls us home, I know God is going to use me for his glory so I will not die for any other reason than him! I need you to pray that the people around me will see this as being faithful to the call of God and not some lunatic adventure! (Even if it seems that way!) There will be a lot of opposition, I know. Especially from people I love most. But God is my highest authority. What he says goes. So I will obey him before anyone else. (Obviously I will make sure that what he is saying to me is really from him!) I know people will think I'm crazy but I care what God thinks not what other people think. Although it would be great to have their support too! ;)


I do need to be spending more time with God so I continue hearing him speak. I really want to but I'm so tired in the morning that I set my alarm and then turn it off and go back to sleep!! Any one got any ideas of how to wake up?!!! Maybe I should get a friend who is an early riser to phone me and not go away until I am out of bed! It's not that I think I have to but I really want to! The evenings aren't as good because its a good end to your day but not a good start!


So that's it from me really for now. A friend and I are doing a prayer day on Saturday for our school and friends and such so if you would like to pray too then please do so for our school! We are looking for God to start a revival wind in our school and that his love would rest upon us and he would start speaking to us about the school :D


Thank you!

Drenched in God

I love God! He is Amazing! I've been trying to spend time with God more regularly which is such a blessing to my life. I would love to do that in the mornings but school gets in the way! I need to force myself to get up earlier because I want to start and end my day with God! 

I am so excited about what God is doing and about to do! I want to be completely undone by God's love! I want to experience his powerful love everyday! I want to be completely submerged in his water of life and spirit but at the moment, the water is only washing over my feet, but hey Jesus started by washing his disciples feet!!! I want to be drenched in him and worship in his presence! It has to be more than just twice a week at church and youth group! I need him I want him I desire him I want to be captivated by my Jesus!

People may have noticed a change in me through my writing since the beginning of this blog. That is Jesus! It isn't some weird "stage" in my life, it's the power of Jesus coming into my life! May it never stop! People can call me weird but I don't care, the most important thing to me is to remain in Jesus: And what shall separate us from the love of God? NOTHING! I love Jesus with a passion! I love my family and friends too but Jesus will always come first (I hope!) 

I want to see miracles every day, I want to see revival hit and break open this town I want to walk down a street and see groups of people praying together and worshipping the Lord! I know some of what I'm saying sound like Jackie Pullinger and Heidi Baker, I've been reading their books and found them to be truly life-changing. I have also been reading the bible and found that to be life-changing too! I know Jesus wants me to surrender to his love so that he can use me for his Kingdom come! He wants that for everyone!

Christmas is coming up and I can't wait! This year it isn't all about the presents, I want to celebrate the birth of Jesus! I don't think I have ever really done that before,  Christmas was all about family and fun and presents (Which it should be!!) But it should also be about God's amazing plan to save us and celebrating that and being thankful to God!

I pray that Jesus would drenched me his love! He wants everyone to be! I pray that he would use me for great works so that his light may shine through me! May Jesus name be glorified!!

There is always enough... and more!

I have been reading Heidi and Rolland Baker's book "There is always enough" and have found it life-changing. I believe God has given me a spiritual compassion for children - especially orphans - and that he wants me to work with them in the future. This means that every time I see a poor child I cry. Well, this book is all about the Baker's work with orphans in Mozambique and at least once in every chapter I have wept. The miracles they see on a regular basis, and the work they do helping those children is astounding. Last night I started reading this book and I was crying at some of the stories in there. I think I told you about the weekend away I went to where God spoke to me about helping the orphans sooner than I thought, well he spoke to me some more. I put down the book and prayed that God would really speak to me that night (I was thinking it would be a dream but God's ways are higher than our ways!) and I felt God say: "Are you ready? Because I am coming." I thought "Well, I'm not that ready but I still want you to come, Lord." Then I had a vision (like a picture but moving, and very vivid). I didn't tell you this before but I had a vision when I was away at the conference too, it was of a little girl and I felt like I had to go and help her. Her name was Laura. Well last night I had a vision of her on the streets, unhappy and starving. She was about to get into danger and I was weeping and crying out to stop her but she couldn't hear me. Then it finished. I don't know what happened to her but I really feel as though she will have a big impact on my life somehow so I started praying for her. I thought there was more to it than that though, I felt like God would speak about my future again. He did. I was asleep and my 6 year old brother was sleepwalking, he came into our room and  climbed into my bed. I was half-asleep so I just thought "Oh, my brother's in my bed" before drifting back off to sleep. Then a while later, I woke up again, my brother rolled over, taking my nice warm duvet with him! I got a bit cross at being woken up as it was extremely cold so I tugged the duvet back over myself. Then it occurred to me "What on earth was my little brother doing sleeping in my bed? He should be in his own bed!" I thought that maybe I should move him to his own room but I didn't want to get our of my cosy, warm bed into the cold, dark hallway. I felt like God said "You have a choice. What are you going to do?" So I decided it was probably better if my brother was in his own bed, I picked him up and carried him into his own room. It was freezing outside of my comfortable bed! But I managed to get him to where he belonged without waking him up. I then went to my own bed and felt God interpret what had just happened. I didn't want to leave my "comfort zone", where it was warm and cosy to put my brother into his bed because it was too cold and dark. I decided that if it meant helping others, I would leave my comfort zone. Afterwards, I went to sleep and had a most peaceful sleep! I really believe God was saying that I need to leave this nice "warm" culture and go to a place which is cold and dark but where the people need my help. It was still very vivid when I woke up this morning.


I told my friend what had happened but could hardly get the words out when I told her about Laura; this compassion thing really gets me crying!! But she understood, it's great to have amazing friends, I really believe God has put us in our school and church together to be friends and through that bring people into his Kingdom. We had a prayer meeting with 2 of our other Christian friends and the holy spirit and used that opportunity to pray for each other. We took it in turns to sit in the middle whilst the rest of us lay hands on them and prayed. It was really amazing. I had another vision, this time of me and Jesus walking through a garden and he was pointing out the most beautiful flowers to me. He picked up a rose and handed it to me, it had the name of one of my friends on it. He then handed me a tulip, it had a name of another friend on it. He kept handing me these beautiful flowers with different names on it (which I have written down to pray for them) and told me to "make a bouquet from them". It was so amazing! Two of my friends had pictures/words for me which I have also written down, they were so beautiful. I love my Jesus!


After the prayer meeting, the holy spirit continued to work throughout my day. I went to academic tutoring to talk to my tutor. I sat in a computer room for about half an hour waiting for my turn and I just felt the Lord's presence, I literally felt oil being poured over my head. I then went to speak to my tutor (who is also a Christian) and told him the story of my "call and confirmations" (see beginning of this blog!). He gave me some advice, for instance he suggested trying to do a first aid course which would be really useful for working with children. So I am trying to research where I could do that. It was a really good chat about the future and it was nice to get a Christian teachers point of view. So today and yesterday were pretty awesome! More Lord! Amen!


I can't wait! There is going to be some awesome stuff happening soon!! Be prepared or you might miss out!