God is love

I was baking bread yesterday evening and I was singing "Oh how he loves us" -beautiful song by the way!- and God just suddenly filled me with his Holy Spirit and I just felt his love and felt as though he was delighting in me. It was incredible, I didn't do anything, I wasn't seeking him but he just came and my heart was wrapped in his love. I love my God. He is beautiful, I can't wait to see his face!
On Tuesday I was asked what makes me completely happy; what is it that I do when I am completely content and loving life. I thought about it and said "when I'm in worship" I love worshipping God! On Sunday I was on worship singing at the front and I usually find it really hard to worship in front of people but God just came into that meeting and I was able to worship him completely! He filled me with his spirit and it was beautiful, he is so worthy to be praised!

God loves us, he is love, he created us for love and out of love. Lord, help me to love you more, with a purer, deeper love. Help me to love everyone around me more deeply and with the kind of love that you love me with. I want to be compelled by love, let everything I do be out of love Lord! Show me what love is in your eyes!

Lord, I ask for more moments where you just fall upon me, where you speak to me and change me God. Help me to live as an example to others, help me to live like you want me to live. I love you Jesus. Thank you for loving me unconditionally.

Week of Prayer and fast

Today has been a good day. I haven't done much to be honest but I just spent some time with God which always makes it a good day! It's so great to have a friend who you can just unload your problems to and know that you don't need to worry about ANYTHING because Jesus is LORD over all. Whatever happens, He will NEVER be knocked off his throne! God is Good! Amen? AMEN!

So this week our church is having a week of Prayer and Fast and I have decided to focus my prayer on three main points (as well as praying for many other things): My boyfriend, The Ukraine and my College. The reasons? Well, my boyfriend is going away for a week on a church week away thing and I felt God ask me to pray for him. I'm praying that he will meet with God powerfully and God would speak to him clearly this week. I pray that he will become even more of a mighty man of God! He's such a great guy I thank God for him so really want to support him in prayer this week as he meets with God. Secondly, The Ukraine- Kind of obvious! I love the Ukraine and it's something on both mine and God's hearts, particularly street children and orphans so I'm praying for God's love to be revealed to them and for their protection. Thirdly, again kind of obvious, I know God's stirring up his power within my college and the lower school too so I pray that will increase and the guys there will be saved.

Life is good, I'm content, I'm happy :) God is awesome and I'm so excited to see what he will do over the next week as the church gathers in prayer. Looking forward to the first collective prayer meeting tomorrow evening and I shall update as I pray and hear from God.

Psalm 36:5-10
"Your love, LORD, reaches to the heavens,
your faithfulness to the skies.
Your righteousness is like the highest mountains,
your justice like the great deep.
You, LORD, preserve both people and animals.
How priceless is your unfailing love, O God!
People take refuge in the shadow of your wings.
They feast on the abundance of your house;
you give them drink from your river of delights.
For with you is the fountain of life;
in your light we see light.
Continue your love to those who know you,
your righteousness to the upright in heart."

Time to start posting!!

Hey again! Long time no write.. I realised that I haven't been on here enough lately so I have returned!


Things have started up again this week.. I have just finished a book called "Love has a face" which is absolutely amazing! I really want to love people like Jesus loves them! Any way, I woke up on Monday morning and the book said 1. Get up, 2. Ask God what he is doing, 3. Go and do it with him. So I woke up and asked God what he was doing and felt him say "Healing the sick" so I prayed for divine appointments this weeks where God would send me to the lost, lonely, hurting and the sick. Any way, Had a really cool prayer meeting on Monday which was superb! And then yesterday, I was sitting with a group of friends and one of my friend's friends complained that she felt awful. So seizing the opportunity, I asked her what was wrong and she said she had really saw blocked ears so I asked if I could pray for her. She said that it was fine, so I asked if I could put my hands on here ears and she was like "Yeah, sure, if you want to" So I prayed for her ears to be healed in Jesus' name! She said thanks and said she'd let me know if it made a difference. I thought "Wahoo! Thank you Jesus!" He gave me an opportunity, courage to take it and through that, one more person knows about Jesus!


It's amazing what can happen when you take out your bible and read it at school. A flock of people gathered round and started to ask me "What on earth are you reading? Oh my word, is that the bible?!" So I had another opportunity there to share about the bible nd answer some of their questions about the old and new testaments and explained why I thought it was a really exciting book and definitely not boring, etc.


Then today, I prayed for another divine appointment and opportunities to heal people and went downstairs and my dad's daily reading was open on "Bringing Healing" so I read it and it asked what I was confident about regarding healing. It also had this amazing bible verse on it from John 14:12-14, which I love!!


So I went to school completely sure that whatever I asked God for he would give; I asked him for opportunities to pray with people. Anyway, first lesson, my friend told me that her boyfriend was in court this morning fighting with his ex-girlfriend about who gets custody of the child. So I asked if I could pray for them because she seemed worried about it. So let her know that I was praying and asked God to do what was best for the child.


This same friend asks me to pray for her for things quite regularly because she said that every time she asks me to pray the prayers are answered! Thank you God! I really pray that you would do more in our school! I ask that everyday you can use me to do your will and share the Love of Jesus with my classmates!

Merry Christmas! :)

Happy Christmas! I hope you had a really good day! I did! We had all our family over in the afternoon which was really nice, my brother has moved back in with us and is currently sleeping on the sofa bed in our lounge so we had to wait a bit longer to open our presents whilst he woke up! My parents are thinking of turning their bedroom into 2 smaller rooms so that my brother has a bedroom, then when he moves out again me and my sister won't have to share a room because we can move into the separate ones! I really hope they can! As one of my presents I got a CD player so I can now play music in my room without using my phone! Unfortunately, because I share a room I can't play music non-stop and my sister and I don't have the same taste in music. I also got quite a few books for Christmas; I am in the middle of reading one which is called "Love walked among us" which is really interesting. I haven't been out much this week so I don't really have much to say but I hope to share some interesting news the week we get back to school! I am very excited for this coming year! 

Love Letter From God.

This is an incredible letter from God to you, his child.

My Child,

You may not know me,
but I know everything about you. 
(Psalm 139:1)

I know when you sit down and when you rise up. 
(Psalm 139:2)

I am familiar with all your ways. 
(Psalm 139:3)

Even the very hairs on your head are numbered. 
(Matthew 10:29-31)

For you were made in my image. 
(Genesis 1:27)

In me you live and move and have your being.
(Acts 17:28)

For you are my offspring. 
(Acts 17:28)

I knew you even before you were conceived. 
(Jeremiah 1:4-5)

I chose you when I planned creation. 
(Ephesians 1:11-12)

You were not a mistake,
for all your days are written in my book. 
(Psalm 139:15-16)

I determined the exact time of your birth
and where you would live. 
(Acts 17:26)

You are fearfully and wonderfully made. 
(Psalm 139:14)

I knit you together in your mother's womb. 
(Psalm 139:13)

And brought you forth on the day you were born. 
(Psalm 71:6)

I have been misrepresented
by those who don't know me.
(John 8:41-44)

I am not distant and angry,
but am the complete expression of love. 
(1 John 4:16)

And it is my desire to lavish my love on you. 
(1 John 3:1)

Simply because you are my child
and I am your Father. 
(1 John 3:1)

I offer you more than your earthly father ever could. 
(Matthew 7:11)

For I am the perfect father. 
(Matthew 5:48)

Every good gift that you receive comes from my hand. 
(James 1:17)

For I am your provider and I meet all your needs. 
(Matthew 6:31-33)

My plan for your future has always been filled with hope. 
(Jeremiah 29:11)

Because I love you with an everlasting love. 
(Jeremiah 31:3)

My thoughts toward you are countless
as the sand on the seashore.
(Psalms 139:17-18)

And I rejoice over you with singing. 
(Zephaniah 3:17)

I will never stop doing good to you. 
(Jeremiah 32:40)

For you are my treasured possession. 
(Exodus 19:5)

I desire to establish you
with all my heart and all my soul. 
(Jeremiah 32:41)

And I want to show you great and marvelous things. 
(Jeremiah 33:3)

If you seek me with all your heart,
you will find me. 
(Deuteronomy 4:29)

Delight in me and I will give you
the desires of your heart. 
(Psalm 37:4)

For it is I who gave you those desires. 
(Philippians 2:13)

I am able to do more for you
than you could possibly imagine. 
(Ephesians 3:20)

For I am your greatest encourager. 
(2 Thessalonians 2:16-17)

I am also the Father who comforts you
in all your troubles. 
(2 Corinthians 1:3-4)

When you are brokenhearted,
I am close to you. 
(Psalm 34:18)

As a shepherd carries a lamb,
I have carried you close to my heart. 
(Isaiah 40:11)

One day I will wipe away
every tear from your eyes. 
(Revelation 21:3-4)

And I'll take away all the pain
you have suffered on this earth.
(Revelation 21:3-4)

I am your Father, and I love you
even as I love my son, Jesus.
(John 17:23)

For in Jesus, my love for you is revealed. 
(John 17:26)

He is the exact representation of my being. 
(Hebrews 1:3)

He came to demonstrate that I am for you,
not against you. 
(Romans 8:31)

And to tell you that I am not counting your sins.
(2 Corinthians 5:18-19)

Jesus died so that you and I could be reconciled. 
(2 Corinthians 5:18-19)

His death was the ultimate expression
of my love for you. 
(1 John 4:10)

I gave up everything I loved
that I might gain your love. 
(Romans 8:31-32)

If you receive the gift of my son Jesus,
you receive me. 
(1 John 2:23)

And nothing will ever separate you
from my love again.
(Romans 8:38-39)

Come home and I'll throw the biggest party
heaven has ever seen.
(Luke 15:7)

I have always been Father,
and will always be Father.
(Ephesians 3:14-15)

My question is…
Will you be my child? 
(John 1:12-13)

I am waiting for you. 
(Luke 15:11-32)

Love, Your DadAlmighty God

Love them like Jesus...

I read something in a book last night which was.. pretty awesome! The book was the bible and it said this: "But I tell you who hear me: love your enemies, do good to those who hate you, bless those who curse you, pray for those who ill-treat you. If someone strikes you on one cheek, turn to him the other also. If some one takes your cloak, do not stop him from taking you tunic. Give to everyone who asks of you, and if anyone takes what belongs to you, do not demand it back." (Luke 6:27-30)


I have read this passage before, but it hadn't really stood out to me that much. I read it again, and realised that actually, I have so much to learn. You see, I got this cup for my birthday, it's a Cath Kidson mug and I was really pleased with it. However I don't use it that often because it's quite large and I usually only want a small cup of tea or whatever, but it was still mine. Then, my sister started borrowing it and for some reason I got really annoyed. I told her not to steal it because it's mine and I didn't want her to break it. I kept getting angry with her every time she took it. Now, having read that, I could have let her take it. I could have offered to make her a cup of tea with it. When my sisters want to borrow my clothes I could let them borrow them, then they wouldn't be 'stealing'. If we share everything with everyone, there wouldn't be thieves!! If my sister takes my favourite jumper from my wardrobe, I could offer her my best hat to go with it. That is love! It's grace! It's loving like Jesus! We all think 'What Would Jesus Do?' But do we all think 'What Did Jesus Do?' Jesus gave everything he had, when people persecuted him he prayed "Father forgive them" When the poor came to him, he blessed them. 


I know that I have so many things, a lot of it is junk, as Christmas comes closer I will obtain more "stuff" but there are people who own nothing but the clothes on their backs. I have so much that I can give, what stops me? I honestly don't know the answer to that question. I want to give and share but why don't I? Maybe I value my possessions far more than I should. We come into this world with nothing and we leave with nothing. So technically, that means that every possession we own, doesn't really belong to us. We're borrowing it whilst we're on this earth. If the world didn't value "stuff" so much, every one would be more satisfied. People say money doesn't buy you happiness, I don't completely agree. I think it buys happiness for a while, but it will never buy satisfaction. Some one spends their whole life saving for  this one object because the media or their friends have told them that it's amazing and that it will bring them happiness. And they buy it, and it does make them happy! For a week or two they're overjoyed with this "thing" that they have, but then they see an advert for a car or a new phone and suddenly, they want that instead. The thing that they so desperately wanted, when they have it, they suddenly see it's uselessness. True happiness comes from serving other people. I'm not talking about becoming a slave, I'm talking about helping others. Some people might spit it back in your face, but the people who accept your help and are grateful, that will make you happy. When you make someone smile or say thank you or laugh, don't you feel all bubbly inside? It makes you happy knowing that others are happy. It is impossible to be happy when you are walking through a street with children dying both sides of you, a war zone in front of you. And not just because you're scared you could die, but because you see suffering. Unless your a sadist you can't smile when you watch destruction and suffering. But when you help those people, when you make a child smile, then you start to smile, knowing that you just made someone else's life worthwhile. If you're unsatisfied with life and don't feel that your life is worthwhile, it's because your not doing anything worthwhile! I can spend my time playing computer games, reading novels, lying in on the weekends, arguing with my sisters, these are all pointless things which do absolutely nothing. If I didn't do these things and instead I spent time with God, I helped my mum with the tidying, I went and spent time with old people who are dying and with newborn infants, then I would see the meaning to this life, I would be humbled. 


Don't get me wrong, I'm not having a go at anyone, I do it too! I live an unsatisfying life because I am selfish and I place too much value on worldly things. I want to be humbled and full of love and grace! I can't do it on my own, that's why I need God to help me. To ask him if he will soften my heart and open doors to help people. I need him to help me get rid of the selfishness in my life and give me a heart of love. I am going to mess up, it's going to happen because I am only a human. I need God to help me, but even if I don't change, even if tomorrow I go shopping and buy lots of clothes and ignore the homeless guy on the street, God still loves me! I can't stress this enough!! You are free by grace! God died so that we don't have to earn our way to heaven, if we accept him and ask him into our lives, we are going to heaven!!!!! *CELEBRATE* but I want the most out of my life, I want to live a life full of love. 


God love us so much! He thinks about us all the time! He can't take his mind of us! We are free! We are children of God! I read this the other day, it's a love letter from God, they are all verses from the bible put together to make a letter of love from our creator God. I just read it and it is quite long so I will put it on a separate post... Please read it, it's amazing!!

Incredible Love...

I decided to write a list of some amazing books because if you haven't read them then you're missing out big time! So here goes, my favourite books (in no particular order!):
Compelled by love (Heidi Baker), Always Enough (Heidi and Rolland Baker), Chasing The Dragon (Jackie Pullinger), Moving In The Prophetic (Greg Haslam), Story Lines (Mike Pilavachi and Andy Croft), More Than Conquerors (Simon Guillebaud), and The Holy Bible.


Anyway. I was writing this post because I had read something in Story Lines which I found absolutely incredible. I always used to think that God was a bit harsh and a bit angry in the old testament and couldn't understand Him...As a bit of background to the bible if you've never read it, God created the world and made People (Adam and Eve). The world and everything in it was perfect, just as God intended. God's presence was with Adam and Eve and He loved them. God gave humans freewill and they ended up turning their backs on God. Each generation after that continued turning their backs on God and became 'unclean' and rebelled, but because God loved them He wanted to still be with them so He created these laws for them to be purified so that His presence could still be with them. The people didn't follow these laws and they ended up making idols and worshipping "Gods" made of wood and Gold. They even sacrificed their children to please theses man-made "Gods". This is an amazing example from the book I've been reading. Now imagine this:
    Your best friend gets married. She loves him with all that she has but she comes home one day and finds him having sex with another woman. How totally heart-broken she would be. Instead of walking away, your friend chooses to forgive her husband and continues with the marriage, still loving him as much as she did before. She comes home a week later and this time he's sleeping with somebody else! The months go by and he sleeps with anyone and everyone, he does it publicly and without feeling any sense of shame. One day she comes home and finds to her utter horror that he has murdered their children to please another woman. Your friend is beyond devastated; she is totally shattered and absolutely broken. She comes to you for advice. What do you say? If we were God's counsellor and this moment we would've said "God, you've given it your best shot. She'll never change; she's had way too many lovers. It's not just that she has broken your heart, she's completely humiliated you! You've done everything you can to save the marriage. Now for your sake, walk away- no one would blame you!" An issue some have with the God in the old testament is why he got so angry; our honest question, having read this, is why didn't he get more angry?


Wow. I just think that is incredible. I mean I wouldn't blame God if he gave up on us, in fact I'd probably even advise it! Instead, he sent his only son, Jesus, down to earth. To live as a man and then die and pay the punishment we deserve. We deserve total separation from God, we deserve to die, to pay the price for what we did. I used to think that because I had never murdered anyone it meant that I was a good person. Actually, we've all done something wrong. If you say you haven't you just lied. The thing is The Holy, Perfect, Incredible God can't be with us if we aren't completely pure. But he loved us, his creation, so much that he sent his son to die a horrific death that we deserve. The best news is that it's free! We can now be in his presence 24/7 because Jesus made a way, he pulled the plug out so that God's presence can flow again! God planned it from the beginning because he knew we couldn't do it! All we have to do is accept it. Believe it. It's free for anyone, from the murderer to the queen! If I gave you some cake for free, it's still free but it's up to you to take it, and if you do take it, if you then do something wrong, I'm not going to take the cake away from you! When you accept God's grace and love- it's for life. We don't and can't do anything to deserve his love but it doesn't matter because its free! It grace! Gods Riches At Christ's Expense! God loves us when we're good and he loves us when we're not! All we do is accept this amazing gift of Grace. Sounds incredible right? It's true! We will never be able to understand everything about God because we, in our human mindsets could never do what he did for us. Jesus said "Greater loves has no one than this, that he lay down his life for his friends". Jesus has that amazing love because he willingly gave up his own life for us. Guess what.. There's more. Not only did he die for us to cancel our debts forever, he rose again! He CONQUERED death! He slapped death in the face and rose above it! If we simply accept what Jesus has done for us then our sins are wiped away forever! I bet there's one thing you've done that you would cringe if anyone found out, well God wiped it off the slate. It's gone, forgotten because he cancelled it out and payed the price. All we do is choose to accept it.. or turn away. We have the choice because God gave us free will.

What do you choose?

Drenched in God

I love God! He is Amazing! I've been trying to spend time with God more regularly which is such a blessing to my life. I would love to do that in the mornings but school gets in the way! I need to force myself to get up earlier because I want to start and end my day with God! 

I am so excited about what God is doing and about to do! I want to be completely undone by God's love! I want to experience his powerful love everyday! I want to be completely submerged in his water of life and spirit but at the moment, the water is only washing over my feet, but hey Jesus started by washing his disciples feet!!! I want to be drenched in him and worship in his presence! It has to be more than just twice a week at church and youth group! I need him I want him I desire him I want to be captivated by my Jesus!

People may have noticed a change in me through my writing since the beginning of this blog. That is Jesus! It isn't some weird "stage" in my life, it's the power of Jesus coming into my life! May it never stop! People can call me weird but I don't care, the most important thing to me is to remain in Jesus: And what shall separate us from the love of God? NOTHING! I love Jesus with a passion! I love my family and friends too but Jesus will always come first (I hope!) 

I want to see miracles every day, I want to see revival hit and break open this town I want to walk down a street and see groups of people praying together and worshipping the Lord! I know some of what I'm saying sound like Jackie Pullinger and Heidi Baker, I've been reading their books and found them to be truly life-changing. I have also been reading the bible and found that to be life-changing too! I know Jesus wants me to surrender to his love so that he can use me for his Kingdom come! He wants that for everyone!

Christmas is coming up and I can't wait! This year it isn't all about the presents, I want to celebrate the birth of Jesus! I don't think I have ever really done that before,  Christmas was all about family and fun and presents (Which it should be!!) But it should also be about God's amazing plan to save us and celebrating that and being thankful to God!

I pray that Jesus would drenched me his love! He wants everyone to be! I pray that he would use me for great works so that his light may shine through me! May Jesus name be glorified!!

Compelled by Love

Had another awesome day today, went to my friend's house for a couple of hours and she lent me a book called "compelled by love" by Heidi Baker. I read the introduction and was in tears!! It's an absolutely amazing book and if you ever get the chance, read it. 


I feel like every day I'm getting one step closer to God; well I suppose I am seeing as every day we're one step closer to heaven! But I mean in my relationship with him. I know I never can and never will fully understand God but each day I learn something new, I learn how to love all over again, I learn what faith truly is, I understand more about our role as Christians on the earth. God is so amazing! He just loves to talk to us, to hold us, to whisper to us!


Anyway, in this book it talks about the "Western world" and how once she got a picture of "us" licking the crumbs from under the table, when there was a glorious feast on the table. It really made me think. Why are we settling for crumbs, when God invites us to a banquet?


I was walking into Tesco's today and as I was walking up to the door, God challenged me to lay hands on the sick and heal them in his name. I then literally walked into a woman in a wheelchair, but I just couldn't do it! I couldn't say to her, "Hi I'm a Christian. I can see your in a wheelchair, please could I pray for you to be healed?" I just couldn't! I doubted. I didn't have the faith. I didn't have the courage. I've been asking for opportunities to tell people about God and for people to be healed, yet here I was, rejecting this God-given opportunity! Yesterday, at youth group, we were praying for my friends back to be healed and we asked her how it was on a scale of 1-10 and she said 6, so we prayed again, she then said 10! And guess what we did?! We said "Really? Wow!"
... What is with that! We pray for faith, for healing, for people to know God and yet we are so surprised when God does something! No wonder we don't see many miracles in the "Western world"! I was talking to my friend's dad today, who was saying that Christians pray for God to heal someone, or to do something and then wait for God to do it, God does it through us; he gave us power and authority, not to just ask him and then sit around and wait, he gave us his authority to lay hands on the sick and heal them; he gives us the opportunities and then speaks through us or acts through us, he uses us for his glory!


Don't worry, it's so much easier said than done! But I want to do it too! I want to go out there, into the world and lay hands on the sick; and they will be healed, to pray for the dead; and they will be raised to life, to pray for the hungry; and they will never be hungry again!
God does these miracles in the bible. He does them in the world. Today. When we fall on our knees and cry out to God to see miracles and healing on a regular basis, it will happen!
But we can't pray and sit in our comfortable homes, lie in our comfortable beds, read amazing Christian books and go to sleep thinking "ah, that was nice, thanks God" and then nothing changes. The world needs change! We can pray to see miracles all we like but until we go out there, and lay hands on the sick as God commanded us to do, we won't see anything!


Where are the believers of miracles, the believers of love. They are out there. Are you one of them? Jesus is calling us to surrender to him and go out into our streets, our neighbourhoods, our towns, and expect salvation for our friends and family. How much do you love your friends and family? How much do you want to see them in heaven? How much more does God love them and want them in heaven!


Have you ever thought "I can't be bothered right now. I'm too tired. My life's just to busy." *Raises hand* I have. Even now, I sometimes feel that it's too much effort, even to pray for the energy! Sometimes, it's easier to not try, to simply carry on as the rest of the world does. But then we miss out on the beautiful things God wants us to experience!


I hope and pray that I never fall into the thinking pattern of this world, that I never stop loving Jesus and loving my 'neighbours' as he wants me too. I pray for more faith and confidence every day that when Jesus says to me "pray for that person". I will. God, would you do that? Please help me, equip me for your plan and for your will. I will do whatever you want me to do, help me Lord! Amen!

God has a huge plan ahead; do you want to be part of it?