God is love

I was baking bread yesterday evening and I was singing "Oh how he loves us" -beautiful song by the way!- and God just suddenly filled me with his Holy Spirit and I just felt his love and felt as though he was delighting in me. It was incredible, I didn't do anything, I wasn't seeking him but he just came and my heart was wrapped in his love. I love my God. He is beautiful, I can't wait to see his face!
On Tuesday I was asked what makes me completely happy; what is it that I do when I am completely content and loving life. I thought about it and said "when I'm in worship" I love worshipping God! On Sunday I was on worship singing at the front and I usually find it really hard to worship in front of people but God just came into that meeting and I was able to worship him completely! He filled me with his spirit and it was beautiful, he is so worthy to be praised!

God loves us, he is love, he created us for love and out of love. Lord, help me to love you more, with a purer, deeper love. Help me to love everyone around me more deeply and with the kind of love that you love me with. I want to be compelled by love, let everything I do be out of love Lord! Show me what love is in your eyes!

Lord, I ask for more moments where you just fall upon me, where you speak to me and change me God. Help me to live as an example to others, help me to live like you want me to live. I love you Jesus. Thank you for loving me unconditionally.

Fourth day

Keeps getting better! Today I had loads of conversations with my friends about God, eternity, sin, etc. God keeps opening doors to share the gospel! God is awesome!
This week has been such a bleesing to me and to my relationship with God, He has opened my ears to hear him better and it is wonderful! I just walked home from sixth form and God painted a beautiful rainbow! It was glorious! I've never seen such a vibrant and colourful rainbow before and just worshipped God! Isn't he a great artist?! I felt Him say "My promises are always over you, I never break my promises or transfer my promises to someone else. What I say will happen, will happen. My promises are over you." And I walked underneath that rainbow all the way home and when I arrived home the rainbow disappeared! Incredible! Thank you God for that experience! I want more!

I'm so excited to see what God is going to do this year, if we all surrender our lives to him he can do so much more! I've felt God speak to me recently about not clinging to anything but him. If we hold our lives in open hands God can give to us freely, yes he can also take away but you need to trust him. God is always good, in every situation he works for the good of those who love him. Let him be lord of everything and you will see incredible things. Bring revival Lord! Turn this nation around, turn my life around so I can be better equipped to serve you and share your love.

Tonight we will be praying for overseas and mission, particularly for our friends who have moved to other countries in obedience to God's calling. God meet with us tonight I pray, come Holy Spirit and teach us how to pray! Help me to worship you without distractions and let your will be done. Amen!

Third day

Loving life right now! God is good! He remains constant; he was, is and will forever be good! Today was good, just returned from the prayer meeting where we prayed for the church, ministry, mission, overseers, leadershi, etc. My small group leader and friend came up to me and prayed for me and afterwards said she felt purity coming from me and that God had a harvest for me, to keep spending time with God and he has much fruit to harvest for me. I then opened my bible and read this "then your barns will be filled to overflowing, and your vats will brim over with new wine." That was so encouraging! Thank you Lord! Definitely up for spending more time with God and him speaking to me more! Can't wait to see the seeds I've sown harvested as well! Really exciting! Oh more God! More!

I love you Jesus! He is so good. Like I said, I've been praying for my boyfriend whilst he's away this week and we skyped last night and God is doing some crazy awesome things for him too! I won't go into details, it's his life, but God is speaking to him and meeting with him often and I just pray it continues even after he returns from this week! Thank you Lord for what you're doing in both our lives :)

I want to live in all the fullness of God! Let me experience that God, I seek you with all of my heart, let me find you! Thank you that when I seek, you are found.That when I ask, it is done. That when I knock, you open the door! You never leave me or forsake me and I am so grateful! Thank you God! I pray I would never become satisfied with living without you, let me continually thirst for more of you and continually be drenched in your spirit. There is always enough, thank you! Help me to love more easily, even to the people I don't know or have hurt me. Help me to love with your love, shape my heart to be like yours! I pray people would see the way I live and turn to you because of it! Not to us, but to your name be the glory! Amen!

Second day

Topics to pray for today:

Personal – pray for every believer:

Rediscovering “our first love” (Rev 2)

Spiritual ears to be unblocked

Walking well with God

Worshipping Jesus in daily life

Quiet Times with God - hearing his voice

To be full of the Holy Spirit

Strong marriages

Godly families

Honouring singles

Stewardship / finances

This is what our church is praying for this evening so I thought I'd pop it on here so if you're stuck for ideas of what to pray for then you can join us! I think this is such an important aspect of our lives; walking well with God! I want to have quiet times more often, hear from God more often and spend my life worshipping him! I'd love to have quiet times with my boyfriend sometimes too, my best friend and I used to occasionally do that before she moved but I think it's important to spend time with God alone and with other people who are important to you. There are so many benefits of spending time with Jesus, you will feel so blessed!

I find it really hard to try and live and walk in my own strength, I try to struggle against this culture on my own and I fail. I fall down, I get sucked into the world and don't live a life pleasing to God. I need his strength to carry on, I need him to help me. I need to spend time with him to recharge. He loves me when I'm good and when I'm bad. He loves me whether I spend time with Him or not. That's not why we do it. It's so we can experience the FULLNESS OF GOD! Don't you love that phrase? The Fullness of God! I want it! I want to experience the fullness of God, to experience heaven on earth!

If you're a creative person and find it hard to spend time with God why not worship him in creative ways such as painting or dancing or writing a song? God is so awesome! In games you can win and complete levels and even complete the game itself but with God you never reach the end of getting to know him; there's no end! God is eternal, no matter how much time we spend time with him we can never know just how good and awesome and full of love he is! He's just too big for our human minds! But oh it is so good when you spend time with him!

My soul longs for you Lord! Make me more like you! I pray that you would open our spiritual ears Lord, let us hear your voice more clearly! We are your sheep, we know you speak so help us to hear what you are saying! Help us to rediscover you and your love, to always put you first, you are the only God, you are the Lord, help us to stop putting other things before you! Only you Lord! Help us to worship you in our daily life and to spend more time with you everyday. Speak to us more God, give us prophecies and words of knowledge for others but also speak to us individually about our personal lives, speak to us more about your love and your plans and your goodness God! We love you so much! Thank you for giving us your Holy Spirit, thank you that we have your spirit dwelling in us, keep us longing after you, keep us seeking you. We ask for more God, more spirit, more love, more goodness, thank you for your grace! Thank you Jesus!! God help the church to be full of your love and to make a mark on this world, on this culture to change it! Form us to be more like you, living lives that are pure, holy and pleasing to you! Let us honour you with our hearts, minds, bodies and mouths. God we love you so much. I love you Lord! Thank you! You are good! You are the best! Thank you! Show us how we can experience the Fullness of God, show us the way Lord! AMEN!

Week of Prayer and fast

Today has been a good day. I haven't done much to be honest but I just spent some time with God which always makes it a good day! It's so great to have a friend who you can just unload your problems to and know that you don't need to worry about ANYTHING because Jesus is LORD over all. Whatever happens, He will NEVER be knocked off his throne! God is Good! Amen? AMEN!

So this week our church is having a week of Prayer and Fast and I have decided to focus my prayer on three main points (as well as praying for many other things): My boyfriend, The Ukraine and my College. The reasons? Well, my boyfriend is going away for a week on a church week away thing and I felt God ask me to pray for him. I'm praying that he will meet with God powerfully and God would speak to him clearly this week. I pray that he will become even more of a mighty man of God! He's such a great guy I thank God for him so really want to support him in prayer this week as he meets with God. Secondly, The Ukraine- Kind of obvious! I love the Ukraine and it's something on both mine and God's hearts, particularly street children and orphans so I'm praying for God's love to be revealed to them and for their protection. Thirdly, again kind of obvious, I know God's stirring up his power within my college and the lower school too so I pray that will increase and the guys there will be saved.

Life is good, I'm content, I'm happy :) God is awesome and I'm so excited to see what he will do over the next week as the church gathers in prayer. Looking forward to the first collective prayer meeting tomorrow evening and I shall update as I pray and hear from God.

Psalm 36:5-10
"Your love, LORD, reaches to the heavens,
your faithfulness to the skies.
Your righteousness is like the highest mountains,
your justice like the great deep.
You, LORD, preserve both people and animals.
How priceless is your unfailing love, O God!
People take refuge in the shadow of your wings.
They feast on the abundance of your house;
you give them drink from your river of delights.
For with you is the fountain of life;
in your light we see light.
Continue your love to those who know you,
your righteousness to the upright in heart."

HAPPY NEW YEAR!

Ah it's good to be back! Hope everyone had a great christmas and new year! Made any resolutions yet? I haven't made nearly so many as usual I think I could some them all up in the sentence: This year I want to live a life compelled by love.


Awesome things are happening for the first week of 2012! It can only get better!


So recently I haven't been spending as much time with God, mainly because I've been distracted by 6th form, work, my boyfriend and all the new things that are happening, for instance my 2 best friends moved away :( Very sad but they're both doing what God wants and are enjoying it immensely, and we keep in touch... Anyhoo, so yeah then this week I randomly put on some worship music and looked back through my old prayer diaries (which were the main reason for starting this blog so it would all be in one place!) and yeah God just totally revealed himself! It was incredible! I heard his voice internally but so clearly, he told me: "I am not finished with you, my work in you is only just starting. I will use you. You will be used as a path for my glory in this nation. I have great things planned for you. When I look at you I see Jesus, this is not of you but a gift from me and when others look at you they will also see Jesus in you for my Holy Spirit is within you. Do not worry about doing right, I will not leave you."
How awesome is that?! Then I opened my bible and read: '"From the first announcement I have not spoken in secret; at the time it happens, I am there." And now the sovereign Lord has sent me, with his spirit. This is what the Lord says- your Redeemer, the Holy One of Israel: "I am the Lord your God, who teaches you what is best for you, who directs you in the way you should go."
I was filled with His Spirit and felt renewed and encouraged by the things he said and the things I had written about my college from last year. I wanted Him to use me more so I prayed for lots of things, school, friends, family, etc.


Yesterday, I felt God challenge me to pray over my friends for words of knowledge/prophecies at school so I prayed and text my 2 christian friends asking if they could also pray but not much happened in terms of witnessing. Then today I woke up and felt God say "speak about my love" and I felt like I would talk to large groups of people because that is what I had been reading in my prayer diary, it was one of the prophecies spoken over me that I would witness to large groups of people and not to be afraid. And today, that oppertunity arose; we were all talking about God and one of my friends who has sprained his hip and has crutches, said he met some Christians when he was out for halloween and one of them spoke about healing and he said to me "Ah I kind of wish I had my hip thing then because they could have prayed for me" so I said "Do you want to be prayed for?" and he was like "Yeah okay then" and so I asked if I could put my hand on his hip and prayed and nothing happened so I asked him to stand and prayed again and nothing happened so I prayed again and this time I got indignant and prayed God 've just made myself look like an idiot here, no, I won't take no for an answer, heal him now in the name of Jesus! And he wiggled his hips and was like "Whoah, I'm healed!" And I asked if he felt any pain and he said no! So I said "You're sure? You're not just saying this?" And he was like "no it doesn't hurt! I'm going on a run tonight now!" PRAISE GOD!
Then he preceeded to tell his friends that God had healed him! He put it on facebook/twitter and wasn't afraid to tell the world that he was healed BY GOD! Awesome!!!!!


Thank you Lord! That is the first person I've prayed for who has been healed! Glory to God! Thank you for using me, for fulfilling prophecies over me for showing your great love and mercy! Thank you so much! Please speak to his heart and everyone around us who witnessed your mercy, please show them who you are, reveal Jesus to them and use me I pray! I pray for words of knowledge as I'm sitting with them, shine your light in our school God! Increase the number of people at the prayer meetings! Do more miracles! Thank you LORD! You are so good to us!


More Lord! Bring revival to this place! Bring my friends to church! Lord do more in our nation! I love you more than anything in the world! Let your will be done!


AMEN!

The last post

So I assumed when I wrote this blog that I would continue it for a while. But its been a year and life seems to have slown down whilst going incredibly fast! (If thats even possible?!) I think I want to focus on whats happening right now, I've always been caught up in my future and what God has planned for me but He keeps reminding me of what he has for me now. I have some amazing people in my life right now and I want to live my life with them for the now moments. God is doing some really exciting things at the moment. At any point things are going to really pick up and revival will hit Britain before she knows what hit her. I'm so excited! God really does work everything out for the good of those who love him. He has given me some amazing gifts these past months and I know the Ukraine is a huge part of my future but there are other things to live for now and to look forward to later. I want to travel and get to know different cultures and learn languages and definately visit the Ukraine at some point but I know God has plans for me here, in the UK as well as other international places he's been speaking to me about. I want to live for the now so I don't miss out on what God wants for me todayand tomorrow! So I'm finishing off this blog (at least for a while) and shall say God bless and goodbye! If I'm not back here blogging again, and I never meet my readers in person then I shall see you all in eternity! Au revoir! :D

Our Life

I wanna set the world on fire

Until it's burning bright for you

It's everything that i desire

Can i be the one you use?

I, i am small but

You, you are big enough

I, i am weak but

You, you are strong enough to

Take my dreams

Come and give them wings

Lord with you

There's nothing i cannot do

Nothing i cannot do

I wanna feed the hungry children

And reach across the farthest land

And tell the broken there is healing

And mercy in the father's hands

I, i am small but

You, you are big enough

I, i am weak but

You, you are strong enough to

Take my dreams

Come and give them wings

Lord with you

There's nothing i cannot do (x2)

My hands my feet

My everything

My life my love

Lord use me

Take my dreams

Come and give them wings

'cause lord with you

Nothing i can't do (x2)

I'm gonna set the world on fire

Set the world on fire

There is nothing I can't do because of My God! Fire spreads so rapidly, it only takes a few of us to be on fire before the whole world is aflame! 

Nearly a new year...

The realisation hit me earlier today... it is almost the end of the year! At the beginning of this year there were a lot of prophecies about this being a new year and amazing things happening to the youth, and those promises have been fulfilled. My new year's resolution to bring someone to Christ has been fulfilled also! I can't wait to write next years resolution!! I wonder where I will be this time next year and what I will be doing. I think I have a rough idea but it's up to God; I'm waiting to see where he leads me! I am so excited!

I was in Biology today and I was thinking about how my teacher was teaching and I imagined teaching children at some point, specifically poor children who have no homes or families, and I thought that there are so many children and what would be a nice number to take off the streets and look after and I thought to myself: "8? Yes, 8 is a nice number, I can do 8" And as soon as I said it I just felt God laugh! It was so hearty that I started laughing too in the middle of my lesson! I don't think many people noticed but it was very funny. So I am thinking that God has a lot more children in mind than just 8!


I have also been thinking of mission trips and I am interested in doing one next summer, it is for a week and I have signed up for it. There is a selection process so I suppose if God wants me to go then I'll get through and be able to raise the money! It's all so exciting. I would love to be involved with a church plant as well, to watch a church's growth from the beginning. I think that would be so exciting! I think my family might be taking part in one pretty soon!


It would be so cool if a stranger walked up to me and handed me plane tickets to Ukraine with the date on that I was supposed to go but it doesn't always happen like that! Sometimes it does and that is so cool when that happens but I had a dream that my mum told me to start saving for the Ukraine flight now, I woke up and I remembered it very clearly. So, I need to start saving my pocket money! I can't wait until we go back to school next year! My last school year and it's going to be amazing! I know that God has some huge plans ahead and he has written his name on our school as his so we wait for him to spread his revival fire!

The fire is back!

Wahoooo!!! God is so awesome! I love him so much! Last night, we had Youth Group and it was one of the best! The worship was incredible! God really spoke throughout and I really felt his presence! Then we all prayed for each other, someone would sit in the middle and we gathered round and prayed and prophesied over each other. These were the words people prophesied over me: "I see you on the front lines, people have been placed by the enemy to taunt you but you have a huge smile on your face, let joy be your strength. God will use that to overpower." And; "You are on a surf-board on a big wave, surfing- you are panicking a bit. Focus on God, enjoy the ride, don't fret. Enjoy the exhilaration of being on the wave." Also; "Being fired up isn't just a phase, 'to he who has, more will be given'."
   They were really spot on because I have been panicking about the future a bit- the deadlines for handing in applications for 6th form is coming up and I really need to make sure I'm doing what God wants me to do, and follow him. And also, a lot of people at school are being rude to me about me being a Christian, so that was really cool as well! And I want to be continuously fired up for Jesus so they all hit the spot!
   I got home and opened the bible- I couldn't wait to read more of God's word! It opened in the psalms and I read the first few sentences which said "Remember, Lord, how your servant has been mocked, how I bear in my heart the taunts of all nations, the taunts with which your enemies have mocked every step of your anointed one. Praise be to the Lord forever! Amen and Amen." (Psalm 89:50-52)
My eyes then brushed over the last few sentences on the page and read "The seas have lifted up, O Lord, the seas have lifted up their voice; the seas have lifted up their pounding waves. Mightier than the thunder of the great waters, mightier than the breakers of the sea- the Lord on high is mighty." (Psalm 93:3-4)
I thought that was so cool! How both those verses were the things prophesied over me! I love how God does things like that!


And  apart from being sick at 10 to 3 in the morning I am feeling great! I am listening to some worship music whilst my family has gone out for my little brothers birthday, I love it when I have the house to myself, it's so freeing! Well, that's all my news for now. I will update shortly because God is still holding our school in his hands and he is going to do some amazing things! He hasn't forgotten! Expect the unexpected!!

Love Letter From God.

This is an incredible letter from God to you, his child.

My Child,

You may not know me,
but I know everything about you. 
(Psalm 139:1)

I know when you sit down and when you rise up. 
(Psalm 139:2)

I am familiar with all your ways. 
(Psalm 139:3)

Even the very hairs on your head are numbered. 
(Matthew 10:29-31)

For you were made in my image. 
(Genesis 1:27)

In me you live and move and have your being.
(Acts 17:28)

For you are my offspring. 
(Acts 17:28)

I knew you even before you were conceived. 
(Jeremiah 1:4-5)

I chose you when I planned creation. 
(Ephesians 1:11-12)

You were not a mistake,
for all your days are written in my book. 
(Psalm 139:15-16)

I determined the exact time of your birth
and where you would live. 
(Acts 17:26)

You are fearfully and wonderfully made. 
(Psalm 139:14)

I knit you together in your mother's womb. 
(Psalm 139:13)

And brought you forth on the day you were born. 
(Psalm 71:6)

I have been misrepresented
by those who don't know me.
(John 8:41-44)

I am not distant and angry,
but am the complete expression of love. 
(1 John 4:16)

And it is my desire to lavish my love on you. 
(1 John 3:1)

Simply because you are my child
and I am your Father. 
(1 John 3:1)

I offer you more than your earthly father ever could. 
(Matthew 7:11)

For I am the perfect father. 
(Matthew 5:48)

Every good gift that you receive comes from my hand. 
(James 1:17)

For I am your provider and I meet all your needs. 
(Matthew 6:31-33)

My plan for your future has always been filled with hope. 
(Jeremiah 29:11)

Because I love you with an everlasting love. 
(Jeremiah 31:3)

My thoughts toward you are countless
as the sand on the seashore.
(Psalms 139:17-18)

And I rejoice over you with singing. 
(Zephaniah 3:17)

I will never stop doing good to you. 
(Jeremiah 32:40)

For you are my treasured possession. 
(Exodus 19:5)

I desire to establish you
with all my heart and all my soul. 
(Jeremiah 32:41)

And I want to show you great and marvelous things. 
(Jeremiah 33:3)

If you seek me with all your heart,
you will find me. 
(Deuteronomy 4:29)

Delight in me and I will give you
the desires of your heart. 
(Psalm 37:4)

For it is I who gave you those desires. 
(Philippians 2:13)

I am able to do more for you
than you could possibly imagine. 
(Ephesians 3:20)

For I am your greatest encourager. 
(2 Thessalonians 2:16-17)

I am also the Father who comforts you
in all your troubles. 
(2 Corinthians 1:3-4)

When you are brokenhearted,
I am close to you. 
(Psalm 34:18)

As a shepherd carries a lamb,
I have carried you close to my heart. 
(Isaiah 40:11)

One day I will wipe away
every tear from your eyes. 
(Revelation 21:3-4)

And I'll take away all the pain
you have suffered on this earth.
(Revelation 21:3-4)

I am your Father, and I love you
even as I love my son, Jesus.
(John 17:23)

For in Jesus, my love for you is revealed. 
(John 17:26)

He is the exact representation of my being. 
(Hebrews 1:3)

He came to demonstrate that I am for you,
not against you. 
(Romans 8:31)

And to tell you that I am not counting your sins.
(2 Corinthians 5:18-19)

Jesus died so that you and I could be reconciled. 
(2 Corinthians 5:18-19)

His death was the ultimate expression
of my love for you. 
(1 John 4:10)

I gave up everything I loved
that I might gain your love. 
(Romans 8:31-32)

If you receive the gift of my son Jesus,
you receive me. 
(1 John 2:23)

And nothing will ever separate you
from my love again.
(Romans 8:38-39)

Come home and I'll throw the biggest party
heaven has ever seen.
(Luke 15:7)

I have always been Father,
and will always be Father.
(Ephesians 3:14-15)

My question is…
Will you be my child? 
(John 1:12-13)

I am waiting for you. 
(Luke 15:11-32)

Love, Your DadAlmighty God

Love them like Jesus...

I read something in a book last night which was.. pretty awesome! The book was the bible and it said this: "But I tell you who hear me: love your enemies, do good to those who hate you, bless those who curse you, pray for those who ill-treat you. If someone strikes you on one cheek, turn to him the other also. If some one takes your cloak, do not stop him from taking you tunic. Give to everyone who asks of you, and if anyone takes what belongs to you, do not demand it back." (Luke 6:27-30)


I have read this passage before, but it hadn't really stood out to me that much. I read it again, and realised that actually, I have so much to learn. You see, I got this cup for my birthday, it's a Cath Kidson mug and I was really pleased with it. However I don't use it that often because it's quite large and I usually only want a small cup of tea or whatever, but it was still mine. Then, my sister started borrowing it and for some reason I got really annoyed. I told her not to steal it because it's mine and I didn't want her to break it. I kept getting angry with her every time she took it. Now, having read that, I could have let her take it. I could have offered to make her a cup of tea with it. When my sisters want to borrow my clothes I could let them borrow them, then they wouldn't be 'stealing'. If we share everything with everyone, there wouldn't be thieves!! If my sister takes my favourite jumper from my wardrobe, I could offer her my best hat to go with it. That is love! It's grace! It's loving like Jesus! We all think 'What Would Jesus Do?' But do we all think 'What Did Jesus Do?' Jesus gave everything he had, when people persecuted him he prayed "Father forgive them" When the poor came to him, he blessed them. 


I know that I have so many things, a lot of it is junk, as Christmas comes closer I will obtain more "stuff" but there are people who own nothing but the clothes on their backs. I have so much that I can give, what stops me? I honestly don't know the answer to that question. I want to give and share but why don't I? Maybe I value my possessions far more than I should. We come into this world with nothing and we leave with nothing. So technically, that means that every possession we own, doesn't really belong to us. We're borrowing it whilst we're on this earth. If the world didn't value "stuff" so much, every one would be more satisfied. People say money doesn't buy you happiness, I don't completely agree. I think it buys happiness for a while, but it will never buy satisfaction. Some one spends their whole life saving for  this one object because the media or their friends have told them that it's amazing and that it will bring them happiness. And they buy it, and it does make them happy! For a week or two they're overjoyed with this "thing" that they have, but then they see an advert for a car or a new phone and suddenly, they want that instead. The thing that they so desperately wanted, when they have it, they suddenly see it's uselessness. True happiness comes from serving other people. I'm not talking about becoming a slave, I'm talking about helping others. Some people might spit it back in your face, but the people who accept your help and are grateful, that will make you happy. When you make someone smile or say thank you or laugh, don't you feel all bubbly inside? It makes you happy knowing that others are happy. It is impossible to be happy when you are walking through a street with children dying both sides of you, a war zone in front of you. And not just because you're scared you could die, but because you see suffering. Unless your a sadist you can't smile when you watch destruction and suffering. But when you help those people, when you make a child smile, then you start to smile, knowing that you just made someone else's life worthwhile. If you're unsatisfied with life and don't feel that your life is worthwhile, it's because your not doing anything worthwhile! I can spend my time playing computer games, reading novels, lying in on the weekends, arguing with my sisters, these are all pointless things which do absolutely nothing. If I didn't do these things and instead I spent time with God, I helped my mum with the tidying, I went and spent time with old people who are dying and with newborn infants, then I would see the meaning to this life, I would be humbled. 


Don't get me wrong, I'm not having a go at anyone, I do it too! I live an unsatisfying life because I am selfish and I place too much value on worldly things. I want to be humbled and full of love and grace! I can't do it on my own, that's why I need God to help me. To ask him if he will soften my heart and open doors to help people. I need him to help me get rid of the selfishness in my life and give me a heart of love. I am going to mess up, it's going to happen because I am only a human. I need God to help me, but even if I don't change, even if tomorrow I go shopping and buy lots of clothes and ignore the homeless guy on the street, God still loves me! I can't stress this enough!! You are free by grace! God died so that we don't have to earn our way to heaven, if we accept him and ask him into our lives, we are going to heaven!!!!! *CELEBRATE* but I want the most out of my life, I want to live a life full of love. 


God love us so much! He thinks about us all the time! He can't take his mind of us! We are free! We are children of God! I read this the other day, it's a love letter from God, they are all verses from the bible put together to make a letter of love from our creator God. I just read it and it is quite long so I will put it on a separate post... Please read it, it's amazing!!

Incredible Love...

I decided to write a list of some amazing books because if you haven't read them then you're missing out big time! So here goes, my favourite books (in no particular order!):
Compelled by love (Heidi Baker), Always Enough (Heidi and Rolland Baker), Chasing The Dragon (Jackie Pullinger), Moving In The Prophetic (Greg Haslam), Story Lines (Mike Pilavachi and Andy Croft), More Than Conquerors (Simon Guillebaud), and The Holy Bible.


Anyway. I was writing this post because I had read something in Story Lines which I found absolutely incredible. I always used to think that God was a bit harsh and a bit angry in the old testament and couldn't understand Him...As a bit of background to the bible if you've never read it, God created the world and made People (Adam and Eve). The world and everything in it was perfect, just as God intended. God's presence was with Adam and Eve and He loved them. God gave humans freewill and they ended up turning their backs on God. Each generation after that continued turning their backs on God and became 'unclean' and rebelled, but because God loved them He wanted to still be with them so He created these laws for them to be purified so that His presence could still be with them. The people didn't follow these laws and they ended up making idols and worshipping "Gods" made of wood and Gold. They even sacrificed their children to please theses man-made "Gods". This is an amazing example from the book I've been reading. Now imagine this:
    Your best friend gets married. She loves him with all that she has but she comes home one day and finds him having sex with another woman. How totally heart-broken she would be. Instead of walking away, your friend chooses to forgive her husband and continues with the marriage, still loving him as much as she did before. She comes home a week later and this time he's sleeping with somebody else! The months go by and he sleeps with anyone and everyone, he does it publicly and without feeling any sense of shame. One day she comes home and finds to her utter horror that he has murdered their children to please another woman. Your friend is beyond devastated; she is totally shattered and absolutely broken. She comes to you for advice. What do you say? If we were God's counsellor and this moment we would've said "God, you've given it your best shot. She'll never change; she's had way too many lovers. It's not just that she has broken your heart, she's completely humiliated you! You've done everything you can to save the marriage. Now for your sake, walk away- no one would blame you!" An issue some have with the God in the old testament is why he got so angry; our honest question, having read this, is why didn't he get more angry?


Wow. I just think that is incredible. I mean I wouldn't blame God if he gave up on us, in fact I'd probably even advise it! Instead, he sent his only son, Jesus, down to earth. To live as a man and then die and pay the punishment we deserve. We deserve total separation from God, we deserve to die, to pay the price for what we did. I used to think that because I had never murdered anyone it meant that I was a good person. Actually, we've all done something wrong. If you say you haven't you just lied. The thing is The Holy, Perfect, Incredible God can't be with us if we aren't completely pure. But he loved us, his creation, so much that he sent his son to die a horrific death that we deserve. The best news is that it's free! We can now be in his presence 24/7 because Jesus made a way, he pulled the plug out so that God's presence can flow again! God planned it from the beginning because he knew we couldn't do it! All we have to do is accept it. Believe it. It's free for anyone, from the murderer to the queen! If I gave you some cake for free, it's still free but it's up to you to take it, and if you do take it, if you then do something wrong, I'm not going to take the cake away from you! When you accept God's grace and love- it's for life. We don't and can't do anything to deserve his love but it doesn't matter because its free! It grace! Gods Riches At Christ's Expense! God loves us when we're good and he loves us when we're not! All we do is accept this amazing gift of Grace. Sounds incredible right? It's true! We will never be able to understand everything about God because we, in our human mindsets could never do what he did for us. Jesus said "Greater loves has no one than this, that he lay down his life for his friends". Jesus has that amazing love because he willingly gave up his own life for us. Guess what.. There's more. Not only did he die for us to cancel our debts forever, he rose again! He CONQUERED death! He slapped death in the face and rose above it! If we simply accept what Jesus has done for us then our sins are wiped away forever! I bet there's one thing you've done that you would cringe if anyone found out, well God wiped it off the slate. It's gone, forgotten because he cancelled it out and payed the price. All we do is choose to accept it.. or turn away. We have the choice because God gave us free will.

What do you choose?

Over the weekend..

This weekend has been amazing! My friend and I had a day of prayer and fasting on Saturday. I had slept over her house so on Saturday morning we got up and wrote a list of everything we felt we should pray for. I wrote a list of expectations I wanted God to do throughout that day and he fulfilled every one again!


I found this verse and love it! Matthew 20: 21-22 'Jesus relied "I tell you the truth if you have faith and do not doubt, not only can you do what is done to the fig tree but you can say to this mountain, 'Go, throw yourself into the sea', and it will be done. If you believe, you will receive whatever you ask for in prayer.'
As we were praying and worshipping I felt God speak a couple of words to me:
1. Last year, Snow didn't fall for ages; we saw signs of it coming and a little fell but it didn't settle or stay long. This year, the snow has came early. [This town] was one of the first places it hit- and settled! The last have come first. God is coming to do amazing works, his spirit has settled on [This town] and he is calling the people to him, he won't fade or melt away, this is it. The time for revival has come. ~ God then spoke and said to me "Open the bible, I want to confirm that" I opened it and read these words "The day of your watchmen has come, the day God visits you."
2. Jesus said he has compassion for the church; he sees we're hungry. He says he will not let us leave unfilled. He will feed the church, this is a promise.
3. God said he wants to change Christmas from a superficial Christmas to a supernatural Christmas. That we should humble ourselves by visiting the dying elderly and the children and show God's love to the poor! Christmas isn't about trees and presents, it's about the love of God, fulfilling a promise to the world.


Later that afternoon, we went treasure hunting. Basically we go into the streets of [This town] and pray for God to gives us clues. We write them down on our treasure maps and go and seek out the clues to bless the people and pray for them. God done some really amazing things! It was such a blessing to know that we were blessing others! 


My friend and I also prayed for each other and she said this: "I felt God say you're on an unravelling path! You won't always be able to see what's ahead, but every time you take a step of faith forwards, he is going to keep unravelling the path before you! Keep trusting and putting your faith in him- He knows everything!" This was really cool because I was waiting for God to give me more directions about the future and this really spoke to me about doing what God has already told me to do so he can reveal more as I climb the next hill.


Sunday was also really good. My friend's dad did a preach which was really good. Then on Sunday evening I went to the prayer meeting which was also great! I think I'll try and go more often, it's great praying with other people.


Today we had our school prayer meeting at lunch which was fun too! I don't think praying is ever boring actually! ;) So I've had a really good weekend! That's all for now! I'll keep you posted!

Compelled by Love

Had another awesome day today, went to my friend's house for a couple of hours and she lent me a book called "compelled by love" by Heidi Baker. I read the introduction and was in tears!! It's an absolutely amazing book and if you ever get the chance, read it. 


I feel like every day I'm getting one step closer to God; well I suppose I am seeing as every day we're one step closer to heaven! But I mean in my relationship with him. I know I never can and never will fully understand God but each day I learn something new, I learn how to love all over again, I learn what faith truly is, I understand more about our role as Christians on the earth. God is so amazing! He just loves to talk to us, to hold us, to whisper to us!


Anyway, in this book it talks about the "Western world" and how once she got a picture of "us" licking the crumbs from under the table, when there was a glorious feast on the table. It really made me think. Why are we settling for crumbs, when God invites us to a banquet?


I was walking into Tesco's today and as I was walking up to the door, God challenged me to lay hands on the sick and heal them in his name. I then literally walked into a woman in a wheelchair, but I just couldn't do it! I couldn't say to her, "Hi I'm a Christian. I can see your in a wheelchair, please could I pray for you to be healed?" I just couldn't! I doubted. I didn't have the faith. I didn't have the courage. I've been asking for opportunities to tell people about God and for people to be healed, yet here I was, rejecting this God-given opportunity! Yesterday, at youth group, we were praying for my friends back to be healed and we asked her how it was on a scale of 1-10 and she said 6, so we prayed again, she then said 10! And guess what we did?! We said "Really? Wow!"
... What is with that! We pray for faith, for healing, for people to know God and yet we are so surprised when God does something! No wonder we don't see many miracles in the "Western world"! I was talking to my friend's dad today, who was saying that Christians pray for God to heal someone, or to do something and then wait for God to do it, God does it through us; he gave us power and authority, not to just ask him and then sit around and wait, he gave us his authority to lay hands on the sick and heal them; he gives us the opportunities and then speaks through us or acts through us, he uses us for his glory!


Don't worry, it's so much easier said than done! But I want to do it too! I want to go out there, into the world and lay hands on the sick; and they will be healed, to pray for the dead; and they will be raised to life, to pray for the hungry; and they will never be hungry again!
God does these miracles in the bible. He does them in the world. Today. When we fall on our knees and cry out to God to see miracles and healing on a regular basis, it will happen!
But we can't pray and sit in our comfortable homes, lie in our comfortable beds, read amazing Christian books and go to sleep thinking "ah, that was nice, thanks God" and then nothing changes. The world needs change! We can pray to see miracles all we like but until we go out there, and lay hands on the sick as God commanded us to do, we won't see anything!


Where are the believers of miracles, the believers of love. They are out there. Are you one of them? Jesus is calling us to surrender to him and go out into our streets, our neighbourhoods, our towns, and expect salvation for our friends and family. How much do you love your friends and family? How much do you want to see them in heaven? How much more does God love them and want them in heaven!


Have you ever thought "I can't be bothered right now. I'm too tired. My life's just to busy." *Raises hand* I have. Even now, I sometimes feel that it's too much effort, even to pray for the energy! Sometimes, it's easier to not try, to simply carry on as the rest of the world does. But then we miss out on the beautiful things God wants us to experience!


I hope and pray that I never fall into the thinking pattern of this world, that I never stop loving Jesus and loving my 'neighbours' as he wants me too. I pray for more faith and confidence every day that when Jesus says to me "pray for that person". I will. God, would you do that? Please help me, equip me for your plan and for your will. I will do whatever you want me to do, help me Lord! Amen!

God has a huge plan ahead; do you want to be part of it?

Amazing Youth Group!!!!!

I don't know what to say... I am so grateful to God, he does the most amazing stuff just because he can!

Last night was WOW! Me and my friend spoke about surrender to our youth group and then we waited to see what God wanted to do, we had some prophetic words for some people so we read those out and we put on some music and let God lead. Had loads of responses, people were praying on their own who weren't Christians and the Christians were praying on their own and for each other, it was incredible! I went to pray for 2 of my school friends who have started coming to youth group and they both broke down into tears, had some pictures and words for them and I prayed over them and asked if there was anything specific to pray for so I prayed again for that. It was truly incredible! I never thought it would happen! They both gave their lives to God and became Christians!!! Praise God!

Need to pray for these 2 but also everyone who turned up last night that did and didn't respond, I truly believe they are now one step closer to God! Keep praying for these youth, God is doing some amazing stuff in our school and youth group! We need to be praying for them to be strengthened in the Lord and protection over them that they continue to follow God. Amen!

Nah nah nah nah nah... I'm loving it!!

The title of this post says it all!!! Had 3 conversations with about 12 people in total about God and his saving grace!! I've invited them to youth group on Friday so hopefully they'll be there! More God!

I love God so much, don't you? He is 

INDESCRIBABLE!!

You know that really amazing thing called prophecy? Where God speaks his heart through humans? Well, I'm starting to understand it a bit more! When someone came up to me on the 13th May and said "God's going to give you the gift of prophecy" I didn't even know what it meant?! Since last year really, it got clearer and then about 2 weeks ago, I was at a prayer meeting and I was being prayed for (and prophesied over) and a lady said to me that she feels that God has given me the gift of discernment, to know when God is speaking and when it's the world, and to discern between what's right and wrong. How COOL is that?! That's what I needed!! Thank you God! Since that week, I have been hearing from God about really random things such as what my day is going to be like or pointing a song out on the Saturday and God says You're going to sing that tomorrow! Things that wouldn't effect my life whatsoever really, except... they come true! Every time! Boost of faith or what?! It's like God is saying random things to me to get me started, to tell me how to listen for his voice. Then on Friday night, I had a dream where a person was prophesying over me; she said that it was time for bigger and better things and to start prophesying over the church and individuals- in the background this guy was throwing something which I thought to be 'manna' over the church. I'm not sure what the latter meant but I really believe this dream was from God because I remember it in such great detail. Thank you God! I also wrote a list of "expectations" down, things I wanted God to do in my life, but mainly for this week- this was yesterday; since then I have had 2 great conversations with different friends about God (one of my expectations on the list was to have many more great conversations with my friends about the Lord!). Praise God! 
Anyway, that's the update on moi (Yeah I love speaking in French too!)


By the way, anyone know where I could get a 'not-too-expensive' Ukrainian-English dictionary from? I checked WH Smith but they don't sell them, not surprisingly-the lady at the desk didn't even know it was a country!!


Another prayer request: a friend of mine (no names) is "half-way" there to giving her life to God, she finds it hard to understand how and why God forgives her, I have tried to explain it but she still seems a bit wary on that and other things, so would you please pray for her this week and also for any other friends who come on Friday evening to youth group that they would hear the message and it would really speak to them! 

:D

Another school day... with a twist :)

Had a good day today, well, it started off badly. But by the end of the day it was awesome! My friend- a different one, who isn't a Christian- was sat next to me in R.E. I had brought my bible today (glad I did!) and she was asking me about the end times and what will happen, etc. I started telling her about Revelation and she was really interested. She said that she really wanted a bible to read so I gave her mine on a long-term borrow! I will try and get her one as soon as possible, God is so good!! I pray that you would speak to her through the bible God, that she would read things that you want her to read, open the pages on something that will change her life! Thankyou so much for all my friends and the great conversations I have with them!!!I really pray she would come into school tomorrow, joyful and blessed by what she has read and that it would captivate her! Amen!!
Great things are happening! Anyone out there, keep praying!!! Change will happen, and it may start with the Youth! 
WE WORSHIP AN AWESOME GOD!