Over the weekend..

This weekend has been amazing! My friend and I had a day of prayer and fasting on Saturday. I had slept over her house so on Saturday morning we got up and wrote a list of everything we felt we should pray for. I wrote a list of expectations I wanted God to do throughout that day and he fulfilled every one again!


I found this verse and love it! Matthew 20: 21-22 'Jesus relied "I tell you the truth if you have faith and do not doubt, not only can you do what is done to the fig tree but you can say to this mountain, 'Go, throw yourself into the sea', and it will be done. If you believe, you will receive whatever you ask for in prayer.'
As we were praying and worshipping I felt God speak a couple of words to me:
1. Last year, Snow didn't fall for ages; we saw signs of it coming and a little fell but it didn't settle or stay long. This year, the snow has came early. [This town] was one of the first places it hit- and settled! The last have come first. God is coming to do amazing works, his spirit has settled on [This town] and he is calling the people to him, he won't fade or melt away, this is it. The time for revival has come. ~ God then spoke and said to me "Open the bible, I want to confirm that" I opened it and read these words "The day of your watchmen has come, the day God visits you."
2. Jesus said he has compassion for the church; he sees we're hungry. He says he will not let us leave unfilled. He will feed the church, this is a promise.
3. God said he wants to change Christmas from a superficial Christmas to a supernatural Christmas. That we should humble ourselves by visiting the dying elderly and the children and show God's love to the poor! Christmas isn't about trees and presents, it's about the love of God, fulfilling a promise to the world.


Later that afternoon, we went treasure hunting. Basically we go into the streets of [This town] and pray for God to gives us clues. We write them down on our treasure maps and go and seek out the clues to bless the people and pray for them. God done some really amazing things! It was such a blessing to know that we were blessing others! 


My friend and I also prayed for each other and she said this: "I felt God say you're on an unravelling path! You won't always be able to see what's ahead, but every time you take a step of faith forwards, he is going to keep unravelling the path before you! Keep trusting and putting your faith in him- He knows everything!" This was really cool because I was waiting for God to give me more directions about the future and this really spoke to me about doing what God has already told me to do so he can reveal more as I climb the next hill.


Sunday was also really good. My friend's dad did a preach which was really good. Then on Sunday evening I went to the prayer meeting which was also great! I think I'll try and go more often, it's great praying with other people.


Today we had our school prayer meeting at lunch which was fun too! I don't think praying is ever boring actually! ;) So I've had a really good weekend! That's all for now! I'll keep you posted!

Running out of blog titles.....

An entire week of Mock exams! They are finally over! In a years time I will never have to do  exams if I choose not to continue further education... a scary thought! What if I don't continue education.. what if God has other plans? I think he's starting to reveal them bit by bit. It's so exciting to be part of an amazing plan that glorifies God!! I don't know how may people will support the idea of stopping "education" but I'm going to do what God says and let some one else worry about other people's views!


In December the United Nations are voting on the "defamation of religious expression" which basically means that if it goes through, each government will be able to decide which restrictions they put on religious freedom. Basically, making the persecution of Christians legal. It might not happen, only God knows. But, it is very possible. There are already a huge number of Christians being persecuted all over the world and it's only going to get bigger. I'm not afraid. If God says it's going to happen, it will happen. It may not necessarily be in my lifetime. It's hard to imagine so many things changing but eventually, change will be inevitable. I'm not sounding too grim am I? It's not supposed to be! Jesus is our rock and our fortress, he has given us spiritual armour so that we may run the race of life. Don't worry! Jesus has already won!! The whole battle was won when Jesus rose from the grave! The bible says "Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to his life?" The road is prepared. It's going to happen with or without you, but Jesus wants you! Are you prepared to follow him, allow him to use your life as a reflector of his glory? Then tell him! Let him know! He wants to hear you say that you'll do anything and go anywhere for him! If you tell him that, he will use you to bring people to him.


In a world of darkness it's our time to shine! Let the love of God be our road map and the spirit be our guide. Think something is impossible? Nothing is impossible with God. Think you can't do it? 2 Corinthians 12:9-10 says; ⁹ But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me. ¹⁰ That is why, for Christ’s sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong. In our weakness, God is strong. Sometime (not always!) it's great when we don't know anything. People always say to me that I need to bring something with me when I go to Ukraine; some qualification to help the people. And you know what? That's great when people go as nurses or teachers! But sometimes God just wants us as we are. I feel, for me, I don't have the time to go to University before I go to Ukraine. But I have something for them which saves lives too, and it will never run out or dry up. Jesus. He is never ending! His love will never run out! They can just keep passing it on and on to others! I may not know how to save some one's physical body from dying, but I know how to save their spirit and you don't need a degree in that! I think it's great when people learn first aid but I don't want to bring bandages and medicines! I want to bring the healing power of Jesus! If I knew how to resuscitate someone, I would. But because I don't, I would have to pray for them! So in this case it's a good job I don't know other things to rely on. It's such a great adventure because it means relying on God alone! This is going to be a massive leap of faith, but Jesus told me that when I can't walk on water he will carry me. I never want to walk alone! And I will never have to. Jesus promised us that he would never leave us! I'm not worried about it even though it does seem quite scary. I have Jesus and he is my rock. My protector. We are immortal until God calls us home, I know God is going to use me for his glory so I will not die for any other reason than him! I need you to pray that the people around me will see this as being faithful to the call of God and not some lunatic adventure! (Even if it seems that way!) There will be a lot of opposition, I know. Especially from people I love most. But God is my highest authority. What he says goes. So I will obey him before anyone else. (Obviously I will make sure that what he is saying to me is really from him!) I know people will think I'm crazy but I care what God thinks not what other people think. Although it would be great to have their support too! ;)


I do need to be spending more time with God so I continue hearing him speak. I really want to but I'm so tired in the morning that I set my alarm and then turn it off and go back to sleep!! Any one got any ideas of how to wake up?!!! Maybe I should get a friend who is an early riser to phone me and not go away until I am out of bed! It's not that I think I have to but I really want to! The evenings aren't as good because its a good end to your day but not a good start!


So that's it from me really for now. A friend and I are doing a prayer day on Saturday for our school and friends and such so if you would like to pray too then please do so for our school! We are looking for God to start a revival wind in our school and that his love would rest upon us and he would start speaking to us about the school :D


Thank you!

Just another day

Our rabbit has just had baby bunnies which are so cute! They keep poking their tiny noses out if the nest! :D
 I didn't have a great day today... it was going fine until I had a drama rehearsal at lunch. I love drama and I want to get a good grade in it so I try to try my best. It isn't helpful when half the group doesn't want to work! I don't think they understand me; I wrote an entire script because we only had one lunch rehearsal to do 10 minutes worth and thought I was doing them a favour to try and help everyone out but they think I'm being bossy and taking over! I would hate to be the leader.. it means that every time something goes wrong the weight is on your shoulders! Some people can be very nasty about stupid things! Never mind. God made sure my lovely best friend was there too And now I am at home and can relax and go to sleep! Except all of my siblings are arguing with each other~ this is one crazy house!


I am almost at the end of my book so will need to find another good one! Any one got any suggestions? I love reading, although doubt I'll have much time for that next week; I have my GCSE mocks, Oh joy! I don't think they'll be too difficult except maybe Maths! Oh well, after these two weeks of Mock exams it will be only 3 weeks until Christmas!!! Yay!!! Yes I am still excited about the presents ;)


So that's it really for today! I'll be back soon with much more news as God continues pour out his love! God bless! x

Drenched in God

I love God! He is Amazing! I've been trying to spend time with God more regularly which is such a blessing to my life. I would love to do that in the mornings but school gets in the way! I need to force myself to get up earlier because I want to start and end my day with God! 

I am so excited about what God is doing and about to do! I want to be completely undone by God's love! I want to experience his powerful love everyday! I want to be completely submerged in his water of life and spirit but at the moment, the water is only washing over my feet, but hey Jesus started by washing his disciples feet!!! I want to be drenched in him and worship in his presence! It has to be more than just twice a week at church and youth group! I need him I want him I desire him I want to be captivated by my Jesus!

People may have noticed a change in me through my writing since the beginning of this blog. That is Jesus! It isn't some weird "stage" in my life, it's the power of Jesus coming into my life! May it never stop! People can call me weird but I don't care, the most important thing to me is to remain in Jesus: And what shall separate us from the love of God? NOTHING! I love Jesus with a passion! I love my family and friends too but Jesus will always come first (I hope!) 

I want to see miracles every day, I want to see revival hit and break open this town I want to walk down a street and see groups of people praying together and worshipping the Lord! I know some of what I'm saying sound like Jackie Pullinger and Heidi Baker, I've been reading their books and found them to be truly life-changing. I have also been reading the bible and found that to be life-changing too! I know Jesus wants me to surrender to his love so that he can use me for his Kingdom come! He wants that for everyone!

Christmas is coming up and I can't wait! This year it isn't all about the presents, I want to celebrate the birth of Jesus! I don't think I have ever really done that before,  Christmas was all about family and fun and presents (Which it should be!!) But it should also be about God's amazing plan to save us and celebrating that and being thankful to God!

I pray that Jesus would drenched me his love! He wants everyone to be! I pray that he would use me for great works so that his light may shine through me! May Jesus name be glorified!!

There is always enough... and more!

I have been reading Heidi and Rolland Baker's book "There is always enough" and have found it life-changing. I believe God has given me a spiritual compassion for children - especially orphans - and that he wants me to work with them in the future. This means that every time I see a poor child I cry. Well, this book is all about the Baker's work with orphans in Mozambique and at least once in every chapter I have wept. The miracles they see on a regular basis, and the work they do helping those children is astounding. Last night I started reading this book and I was crying at some of the stories in there. I think I told you about the weekend away I went to where God spoke to me about helping the orphans sooner than I thought, well he spoke to me some more. I put down the book and prayed that God would really speak to me that night (I was thinking it would be a dream but God's ways are higher than our ways!) and I felt God say: "Are you ready? Because I am coming." I thought "Well, I'm not that ready but I still want you to come, Lord." Then I had a vision (like a picture but moving, and very vivid). I didn't tell you this before but I had a vision when I was away at the conference too, it was of a little girl and I felt like I had to go and help her. Her name was Laura. Well last night I had a vision of her on the streets, unhappy and starving. She was about to get into danger and I was weeping and crying out to stop her but she couldn't hear me. Then it finished. I don't know what happened to her but I really feel as though she will have a big impact on my life somehow so I started praying for her. I thought there was more to it than that though, I felt like God would speak about my future again. He did. I was asleep and my 6 year old brother was sleepwalking, he came into our room and  climbed into my bed. I was half-asleep so I just thought "Oh, my brother's in my bed" before drifting back off to sleep. Then a while later, I woke up again, my brother rolled over, taking my nice warm duvet with him! I got a bit cross at being woken up as it was extremely cold so I tugged the duvet back over myself. Then it occurred to me "What on earth was my little brother doing sleeping in my bed? He should be in his own bed!" I thought that maybe I should move him to his own room but I didn't want to get our of my cosy, warm bed into the cold, dark hallway. I felt like God said "You have a choice. What are you going to do?" So I decided it was probably better if my brother was in his own bed, I picked him up and carried him into his own room. It was freezing outside of my comfortable bed! But I managed to get him to where he belonged without waking him up. I then went to my own bed and felt God interpret what had just happened. I didn't want to leave my "comfort zone", where it was warm and cosy to put my brother into his bed because it was too cold and dark. I decided that if it meant helping others, I would leave my comfort zone. Afterwards, I went to sleep and had a most peaceful sleep! I really believe God was saying that I need to leave this nice "warm" culture and go to a place which is cold and dark but where the people need my help. It was still very vivid when I woke up this morning.


I told my friend what had happened but could hardly get the words out when I told her about Laura; this compassion thing really gets me crying!! But she understood, it's great to have amazing friends, I really believe God has put us in our school and church together to be friends and through that bring people into his Kingdom. We had a prayer meeting with 2 of our other Christian friends and the holy spirit and used that opportunity to pray for each other. We took it in turns to sit in the middle whilst the rest of us lay hands on them and prayed. It was really amazing. I had another vision, this time of me and Jesus walking through a garden and he was pointing out the most beautiful flowers to me. He picked up a rose and handed it to me, it had the name of one of my friends on it. He then handed me a tulip, it had a name of another friend on it. He kept handing me these beautiful flowers with different names on it (which I have written down to pray for them) and told me to "make a bouquet from them". It was so amazing! Two of my friends had pictures/words for me which I have also written down, they were so beautiful. I love my Jesus!


After the prayer meeting, the holy spirit continued to work throughout my day. I went to academic tutoring to talk to my tutor. I sat in a computer room for about half an hour waiting for my turn and I just felt the Lord's presence, I literally felt oil being poured over my head. I then went to speak to my tutor (who is also a Christian) and told him the story of my "call and confirmations" (see beginning of this blog!). He gave me some advice, for instance he suggested trying to do a first aid course which would be really useful for working with children. So I am trying to research where I could do that. It was a really good chat about the future and it was nice to get a Christian teachers point of view. So today and yesterday were pretty awesome! More Lord! Amen!


I can't wait! There is going to be some awesome stuff happening soon!! Be prepared or you might miss out!

Living everyday.

Haven't written in here for a while! I've had a topsy turvy couple of weeks so far! My parents went to India a little over a week ago to help over there with some children as a church mission thing. It's been really nice for them, we had a couple of emails and a phone call from them which was sweet, they sound as though they're really enjoying themselves. I can't wait for them to come back though! We've been praying for them as they're away and so far so good!


Over the weekend I went away to Poole for a Christian conference about being a missionary in our schools, it was really good! I went with my best friend and it was great to be built up with passion for God at the same time! On Monday, we had our usual prayer meetings which was great; we went out on a mini- outreach trip and prayed for some people who were on crutches, unfortunately we didn't see any healings as only one person was willing to be prayed for.
After the conference, I planned to get up earlier in the mornings and spend more time with God, but it has't worked out so far. Sometimes we just get tired or busy and distracted by the world. It's so annoying! I wish I was full-time in the presence of God, worshipping him all the time, but that's what Heaven is for! I get tired easily but I know that God is waiting for me to come and talk to him so he can speak to me. I'm not making excuses, but we shouldn't condemn ourselves for not having our "devotional time" with God. We just pick it up again. The thing is, I really want to be listening and talking to God, I just forget or get distracted! I do want to try harder, but I need your help God!


Over that week-end I also believed that God was telling me to go to Ukraine sooner than I imagined. We watched a DVD called Compassion which is an organisation that sponsors children over the world. I was watching it, and just felt an urge to go and help the children who are suffering. I wanted to go as soon as I left school. I really felt that it would be sooner than I thought anyway (which goes with a word which I received at Newday). I prayed about it and asked God for confirmations, I also told my Friend about it. Then we went into groups and were given a series of discussion topics. After completing these, I asked what people wanted to do when they had left school and college. Then in reply, they asked me. So I said I think I'm going to go to Ukraine. At that moment one of our leaders came and sat down and said "Oh I love Ukraine, it's awesome!" So I replied (with Shock!) "Wait? You've been to Ukraine?!" He said that he had and I said that I had always wanted to go there and he told me of loads of English Christian friends who he knew who had moved out there! THEN he said that he could give me their contact details if I wanted!!! What a great confirmation! I didn't actually end up taking the details because we never got around to it, but the conversation was there! Then, after that, we were sitting in a room reading books and bibles and stuff when I started thinking "Actually, maybe I shouldn't go that soon, I'm really young, I'm a woman, I don't really know what I'm doing, I'm one person - I can't do this on my own. (This was all said in my thoughts!) Then my friend turned around from her book and said "Oh wow! Listen to this! It's so cool!" She then read out the following:

"When it comes to serving God, we must never focus our attention on the size of the task, for it will squash our vision and enthusiasm, we should always place our eyes on the size of our Lord. What he says will happen always takes place in his perfect timing and nothing can stop the Lord's will being done on earth or in Heaven." ~ Brother Yun

How cool is that! Exactly what I was thinking! Then... Later, I sat down on a chair and opened my bible which opened on this verse: 

Judges 18:6

The Priest answered them, "Go in peace. Your journey had the Lord's approval."

So that was really awesome confirmations! Also, I opened a book and found the Lyrics to Steven Curtis Chapman's song "What now?"However, I still don't know if soon is 16 or 18 or maybe a bit after that? I just know it's soon. I really wanted to trust in God for this though and assuming it was as soon as possible, I decided not to create any back-up plans and go by faith alone (like Jackie Pullinger!). That didn't really last long. My school 6th form open evening was last night and  wasn't going to go but then I was convinced that it would be okay and I would just look around and not decide anything. I looked around a lot of topics and could only find 2 which I wanted to do- 'French' and 'Religion, Philosophy and Ethics' Plus an extra-curricular course called tEfl (teaching English as a foreign language). They looked really good but I had to find two others. I looked and looked, I eventually came up with Sociology but wasn't amazed by that. I then decided on a random other to do because I had to and before I knew it I had created a backup plan. So I was a bit annoyed at myself and angry that there weren't enough good options and wanted God to tell me what to do! I'm still not entirely sure but I'm just going to wait and see, I have 2 months before I have to give in my application form for college or 6th form so hopefully God will reveal his plan to me by then! I'm excited by the future but I also know God wants me to be a missionary now in my school for him. 

Lord, I thank you for the many promises you give to us. I thank you that you speak to us, even today. I pray that you would reveal to me your plan for my life. I pray that you would tell me when I'm on the right path and when I'm about to swerve. Please tell me the thing I need to know in your amazing and perfect timing. I pray you would give me supernatural energy when I'm tired and revive me! I pray for a revival in this nation Lord! I truly believe you are about to move in a massive way! Keep me awake and alert so I don't miss the works you are about to do. Use me for your glory Lord. I pray for Mum and Dad whilst they are in India, that they would be a blessing to the community there and they would be blessed as they outreach to the people there. I pray for your protection over them against any illnesses or attacks. In your great name, I pray. Amen!

Keep praying for the work in my school, that the people would be impacted so greatly by the work God does through us and that they would be willing to be prayed for or simply talk about God with us. Pray for a revival! It's going to hit this community so greatly!!

P.S. A few days ago I had a picture of these people floating in the water of a beach and they were sleeping, just floating in the water. Then, they started to rise up and became a massive army, they were revived! God is going to awaken an army of people who will be used greatly for his Kingdom come! Wake up or you'll miss it!!