It's all about you Jesus

I love God. That will never change, it is impossible for me not to love Him. Even  in the middle of this trial, He is with me, He loves me, He is rooting for me every step of the way! This part of my life He has asked me to stay focused on Him alone and not get distracted. So that is what I'll do.

It's really difficult, I miss him so much but I know in a few days and weeks it will get easier, especially as I spend more time with God. That is the entire reason for this.

I wrote a worship song today. It was simple, in the key of C, basic 4/4 chords, simple love words from scripture. But it made me want to sing! It was simple, but I felt God's pleasure in it.

I read my bible a lot today. I read bits from Isaiah, Jeremiah, 2 Kings, Matthew, Luke, Phillipians.. I went all over the place! It was really encouraging, I read some beautful words and God really spoke to me through verses such as 2 Peter 1:3-8
³ His divine power has given us everything we need for a godly life through our knowledge of him who called us by his own glory and goodness. ⁴ Through these he has given us his very great and precious promises, so that through them you may participate in the divine nature, having escaped the corruption in the world caused by evil desires.
⁵ For this very reason, make every effort to add to your faith goodness; and to goodness, knowledge; ⁶ and to knowledge, self-control; and to self-control, perseverance; and to perseverance, godliness; ⁷ and to godliness, mutual affection; and to mutual affection, love. ⁸ For if you possess these qualities in increasing measure, they will keep you from being ineffective and unproductive in your knowledge of our Lord Jesus Christ."

or Romans 5:3-5 "Not only so, but we also glory in our sufferings, because we know that suffering produces perseverance; ⁴ perseverance, character; and character, hope. ⁵ And hope does not put us to shame, because God’s love has been poured out into our hearts through the Holy Spirit, who has been given to us."

and especially James 1:2-4 "² Consider it pure joy, my brothers and sisters, whenever you face trials of many kinds, ³ because you know that the testing of your faith produces perseverance. ⁴ Let perseverance finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything."

God is so kind, good and helpful. I feel like I'm drawing closer just by spending time in his word.

I haven't been praying loads because I seem to just cry for the things I want and not pray out of thanksgiving or just talking to God so for now I've been just praying in tongues. Tomorrow I'm going to try and pray more 'without complaining or arguing'. I've also been listening to worship music which is HUGELY helpful! I love listening to people singing praise to God, I think it is one of the most beautiful things to listen to.

Anyway, I'm going to have an early night tonight, I think sleep is very important. Let's close in a short prayer.

Dear Lord, thank you for your great love and goodness. Thank you that you are ALWAYS good, and that you turn everything to work for good for those who love you. Thank you for being my best friend and thank you that you love me with an EVERLASTING LOVE. Help me to love you more and spend even more time with you. I pray I will feel your prescense in a tangible way and know that you never leave me or forsake me. I know you love me and this is for you. I pour everything out. I give my life to you. I hold NOTHING back. Anything you ask I will give you Lord. I love you more than anything else in this world. You are my friend, father, saviour. The one in whom I trust. You are my strength. I lean upon you now. You are great, worthy of all praise. Thank you for adopting me, for choosing me to be your child, I don't deserve this but I galdy accept this gift. Thank you for your grace. Oh Jesus you are so good! Bless your name! Amen.